Just feeling a lot. Good things. Happy tears. Never really got used to guarding myself against those. [There wasn't enough happy. She's not very good at guarding against the sad or frustrated tears anymore either. Walls are down. Not all of them. But enough for that.]
And... I haven't felt that way in a long time. [Which isn't Pavel's shortcoming or Reid's fault. It's a hard thing for her to believe about herself, and it's been compounded things that seem like proof.]