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Zero Kiryuu (instrumented) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2016-09-27 01:35:00

Entry tags:

ai kuran, haruka kuran, ichiru kiryuu, ren kiryuu, yuuki kuran, zero kiryuu

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[It had taken a fair bit of effort to put everything together, but none of it that wasn't enjoyable. While Zero did do a majority of the cooking, the others helped out here and there. In retrospect, the sheer amount of foods and ingredients he picked up the day before wasn't too much at all. In a general sense Zero made sure that the apartment was well stocked.

Unlike breakfast the other day, tonight their meal is set up more like a buffet, with a good variety of dishes, some of which he's only recently learned how to make. Plenty of meat and fish, a few noodle dishes, salads, etc etc. In hopes it would maybe get Ichiru to at least stop by, too, Zero made the tomato soup that they both used to love when growing up.

Dessert is of course provided as well. More specifically, a sundae bar. A little later on after they've eaten he'll set up the bowls, ice cream, and fixings along the counter.]

(ooc: This is a free for all mingle, so tag as you please! Wildcards welcome!)

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	trappedinresin 2016-09-30 03:32 pm UTC (link)
	Zero... [Reaching out, her hand falls upon his own.] And how much longer have you had to be patient with me? After the furnace, and before Ai's birth? [The long time it took for her to pull herself together. Even sometimes now those dark clouds swell to surround her.] Just don't give up. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	instrumented 2016-09-30 07:37 pm UTC (link)
	I know. I do. [Which he does, and very well, too. Both what she means, and is implying.] I won't give up, but. . . it's still different. [His brows knit.] You let people in. You're appreciative; when you're having a hard time with anything, you let others support you as much as they're able to. You're not forcefully pushing me of anyone else away. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

trappedinresin
2016-09-30 07:59 pm UTC (link)

I have faith in you. [Her fingers curl around his, and she gives him a soft, encouraging smile while sitting up properly.] Maybe not today or even tomorrow... you'll get through to him. In the end, I think he cherishes that you love him, Zero.

[She's sure of it. Even if he doesn't know how to express it in a healthy manner.]

And I do appreciate you. Not one day goes by where I don't feel grateful for having you in my life.

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instrumented
2016-09-30 09:03 pm UTC (link)

He's miserable here.

[He faints smiles, none to happy, even while also there's something bittersweet about it.]

He had been wanting and ready to die, you know. [She probably does, though. Yet he still spoke those words.] He does, though, I'm sure. I know that what he was like during those two times here wasn't a complete lie.

[How playful he wan, albeit still at Zero's expense. There was so much more genuine affection laid bare between then.

He kind of hates the Wardens even more for having done what they had.]

Mm. [His hand shifts a little within hers, fingers lacing.] Sometimes I really don't know what I'd do without you.

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trappedinresin
2016-10-01 12:48 am UTC (link)

[She knows something of pain. The agony felt when you love someone who's given up on hope and life is excruciating. And she knows the loss he feels in regards to Ichiru stems from his own frustration of not knowing what to do to reach him.

She wishes she had an answer. If she did, the events of nine years ago would have changed the present drastically.

Lying back down against her pillows, she scoots over and prompts him to join her for the time being.]

Well. If you didn't for one, you never would have learned how to properly pick out clothes for yourself. You're welcome. [She says it while staring up at the canopy of her bed above her with a creeping smile.]

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instrumented
2016-10-01 01:40 am UTC (link)

[They really have both experienced such heartbreak. Only, for Ichiru, there is no returning. There is no being woken at a later date, no matter how incredibly far into the future it may be. While Kaname had drifted in those moments after giving his heart to the furnace, then very quickly to be preserved, Ichiru had grown cold within his arms. Zero had been able to acutely feel as his pulse slowed, before fading altogether. He remembers too well how nauseous he felt with the taste of his brother's blood still in mouth.

However he would never discredit Yuuki's own circumstances, and the gutting misery and pain he knew very well which she felt.

The subject is neither here nor there, now. He doesn't want to continue to focus on Ichiru, when tonight has already been (otherwise) one that he'll remember well.

While ultimately brief, Zero is initially surprised with the invite. Of course he doesn't question it as he lies down next to her, on his side and propped up on one arm.]

Ah. That's right. What a good teacher you were.

[Dry sarcasm at its best, while more playful in the end.]

Now that I can take care of myself, I'm sure you had fun choosing Ai's clothing.

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trappedinresin
2016-10-01 08:25 pm UTC (link)

[She laughs with a small hum. Actually, if he lets her, she'd still go pick out things for him to wear.]

Of course! Picking out clothes for a little girl is one of the many joys of being a mother! [Her smile never fades.] She has more adorable outfits than she'll ever know what to do with. Because outside of what I buy her, Ruka-san, and many others often buy her cute clothes, too.

[She looks precious in all her many dresses and outfits. After a moment she becomes amused.]

Actually, Ruka-san loves helping dress her. She tries to find the more boyish clothes she possesses, because of her resemblance to her father.

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instrumented
2016-10-01 08:42 pm UTC (link)

[Even if now what he usually wears is what she often bought for him in the first place?]

All the more reason for you to miss her being that age, and instead grown up here, huh.

[~~Don't go there, Zero.~~] Would she ever come along with you to find something she likes as well? What kinds of toys did she like?

[He does wish he was able to experience all of that, too. Watching as Ai grew up. At least he knows that's still a part of his future.

On a different note, that just seems weird for Ruka. Then again, she did always seem hooked on Kuran. For better or worse. Not that Zero paid much attention to it all in the end.]

I can only imagine how much more the Chairman spoils her. [. . .] I hope for her sake that she doesn't have to experience his style of cooking.

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trappedinresin
2016-10-01 09:49 pm UTC (link)

[It is difficult. She's incredible, and it's wonderful to see what an amazing young woman she's become. Yuuki can't feel prouder. But to go from being fully depended upon, to seeing her little girl all grown up certainly hits her hard.

Not to mention not having been able to experience Ren's childhood at all yet.]

I think she might. I don't think I'm so old yet that my fashion sense has to be so very drastically different from her own.

[She likes to think she picks out cute clothes.]

As for the President, well- there's really no... shielding her entirely. Although I usually try to insist on someone else cooking if her grandfather is around.

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instrumented
2016-10-01 09:58 pm UTC (link)

I hardly imagine your own style will suddenly become matronly.

[Cute is much more like it. She's always looked nice, so of course Ai will.

Regardless, he's almost grinning at her with his words because it's true, right? She's the one who's proclaimed to be much more mature, now, over the last couple of years.]

Oh? Have I been able to provide at all, in that case? [He probably doesn't need to ask.] I guess that's all you can really do. I can only imagine how he must react to that. He must be thrilled to have a granddaughter, though.

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	trappedinresin 2016-10-02 01:03 am UTC (link)
	[With a glance over to him she frowns in displeasure, suddenly huffy.] . . . Ai-chan always enjoys your cooking. [It seems like she enjoys his more than she enjoys hers... hmph hmph.] Of course the president is thrilled, though. He spoils her rotten. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	instrumented 2016-10-02 01:17 am UTC (link)
	[Don't give him that look.] I can [still?] help you learn, you know. Well, she's worth it. Ren, too. [He can imagine Haruka does as well, although at times he's way too over protective. It's honestly a little irksome. He's glad for Yuuki being able to genuinely spend time with her father, though.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

trappedinresin
2016-10-03 08:23 am UTC (link)

What are you talking about? I know how to cook.

[She cooks for her daughter often enough...! The results are... sometimes different. The mention of Ren, however, darkens her cheeks.

She's so grateful to have this chance to meet and learn about Ren. It's who the father is that has her a little flustered in that regard.]

I'm sure that he loves them both. The same as father, here.

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instrumented
2016-10-03 07:54 pm UTC (link)

I know. [Really. . .] There's always new things.

[The way she blushes (of course) doesn't go unnoticed. He might be able to guess the reasons behind it, as well. Pointing it out or teasing her isn't something he'll do, though. (Maybe not yet).]

I can only imagine he does, too. [Haruka seriously questions him, though. Yuuki probably knows this, right?] I want to make the best of every moment we have.

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	trappedinresin 2016-10-03 08:46 pm UTC (link)
	Marina is quite the difference from home, huh. [With a frown her gaze turns back up onto the ceiling above them, staring blankly as her mind wanders back to the events at home.] Here you can do whatever you like. And you don't have to worry about how the rest of the world will react to it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

instrumented
2016-10-03 09:09 pm UTC (link)

Very much so.

[He eventually shifts to lie on his back as well.]

It's liberating.

[A part of him really wants to comment on something she said earlier: how back home they can only spend time together upon a bench at the academy. That's of course just one of the very different things here.

When he speaks again it's a little more quietly; maybe even hesitant.]

Would it be wrong to say a part of me really doesn't mind our being here?

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trappedinresin
2016-10-03 11:47 pm UTC (link)

[Even at such a young age, he feels that way? She supposes, if she remembers, that he had struggled greatly seeing her battle through depression.

. . . It would be a lie to pretend that she hasn't contemplated this same issue herself. It's much more peaceful in Marina. But despite the general serenity (most days) she knows choosing to stay is an impossibility.

It can't ever be an option.]

It isn't wrong. [No one can be faulted for feeling that way. There are plenty of people here who prefer it.] My father is here, after all. [It's the only chance she'll ever have to see him again.]

. . . But in the end, I could never allow for Ren or Ai to spend their many long years in prison.

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instrumented
2016-10-04 12:13 am UTC (link)

[Briefly at the tip of his tongue are more questions of why she hasn't been up front with her father. If it hasn't already happened. But that's not the point of the conversation.]

As is Ichiru. [Someone who he'd never see again as well, even for as trying as his brother can be.]

I know. I couldn't either. You're right. [She is. It's not him suddenly changing his mind.] Just I also couldn't allow that for you.

[Didn't she see that coming?]

But while we already are here. . . I don't want to take any of it for granted. I'd like to make the best of it for as much as that's possible.

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	trappedinresin 2016-10-05 10:10 am UTC (link)
	That's my line. [She would never suffer Zero to remain in this place. She'll actively seek an escape for the people she loves most. But for as long as he's here for, she's glad that he can find happiness in it, too.] I agree with you though. Not a single day should be taken for granted. [Not for any of them] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	instrumented 2016-10-05 06:42 pm UTC (link)
	[One of his hands finds hers to take.] We can make a habit of holding family meals like this, then. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	trappedinresin 2016-10-06 02:55 pm UTC (link)
	[Hand shifting within his grasp, her fingers lace with his own, and she turns onto her side to face him.] Sure. I'd like that. I'd like to do it for as often as people are willing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

instrumented
2016-10-06 09:23 pm UTC (link)

[He moves again as she does, giving her hand a light squeeze before they settle between them. Honestly, being this way, and not closing the last bit of space, it's a challenge for him. At least for the most part he's able to refrain from doing so.]

I can't see why they wouldn't be.

[This is already excluding Ichiru. Zero knows she'll be able to read in between the lines. It'll be a long while before his brother genuinely wants to be a part of it all. . . if even at all.]

It's been nice. Having the company and all.

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	trappedinresin 2016-10-06 10:04 pm UTC (link)
	This is from the person who used to intentionally scare off the day class girls. [Well... actually.] Yori-chan mentioned that while gentler, you still have somewhat of a intimidating, or maybe dismissive air at school, too. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	instrumented 2016-10-06 10:24 pm UTC (link)
	I just didn't want anyone to get close to me. [It's a plain statement, and just the truth.] This is family, though. [Yori, though. He's a little amused.] So I haven't changed all that much, then. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	trappedinresin 2016-10-06 10:28 pm UTC (link)
	[A laugh] Well I don't really get to see how you behave in school or the like, after all. But from what I heard you have a funny nickname. Hikage-kun. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)