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Ren Kiryuu | 錐生 恋 ([info]romanticlove) wrote in [info]marinanova,
@ 2016-08-28 00:24:00

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Entry tags::4th wall, ai kuran, haruka kuran, yuuki kuran, zero kiryuu

Day 390| Open Action
[Waking up in a strange place was bad enough but without Ai's presence he felt nothing but worry. He could smell her somewhere, like something sweet that drew one to it. There were other smells - human and vampire alike. It was almost overwhelming, were he not so focused on Ai and only Ai.

As he wandered towards her scent he began to distinguish others, making him stop in surprise. He could smell his mother - that soft smell of sunlight that had always been hers - and his father. It made him press the back of his hand to his mouth as he tried to calm himself. Where was this place? Why was he here? Sure, he'd gotten the introduction upon waking up but it didn't make him feel all that assured until he heard everything from Ai.

Around him others moved about and he decides to stop in front of a food stand, picking up a neatly packaged sweet for his family to share, should they like. Anyone who might look at him from afar might mistake him for his father. He and Zero were quite alike, after all, but then if you could sense those differences - Ren was definitely more like his mother, as an aristocratic Vampire.
]

Apartment Building

[Ren found the source of his mother's scent easily, overwhelmed by it and that of his father's that lingered in the air with hers. He would find Ai with her, surely. Where his family was, he would find all of them. Still he found himself pacing, wondering how to process seeing his father again. It had been some time, after all. He wouldn't want him to see it on his face - how he had missed him, how upset he was that their mother had given her life for their other father to live peacefully. He wished they could have all lived together, but that had not been the hand their lives had been dealt.]

Ah- you're here.

[He smiles, looking up as someone familiar approaches.]

Stables

[Ren could recall stories his father had told him as a child, stories of his days at Cross Academy with their mother. He'd loved horses and that was where Ren knew he too might be able to quite all the overwhelming senses to hit him, the thoughts that came with them.

Quietly, he moves towards one of the closest horses, smiling as he reaches to touch it's snout. It was rare that creatures could relax around vampires, but he hoped that his presence would not be a bother to them.

With the other hand, he holds up treats for the horse before him.
]



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[info]romanticlove
2016-08-29 09:51 am UTC (link)
I see...

[It was, of course, just like his father to try and shoulder such a burden on his own. Just as he'd tried to protect what happiness he, Ai, and their mother had.]

But uncle might come around eventually, right?

[He wanted to be optimistic, if only in the hope that it would make Father feel better, but he knows that it wouldn't terribly matter once he had devoured Ichiru's life. They would make peace with one another then, even if his uncle didn't know it.]

I doubt me being here would be very helpful of that...

[He laughs a bit, just thinking of how it might be if Ichiru met him now. He was everything his uncle had hated: a vampire... more importantly he also was his father's son. They were practically mirror images of each other, though he knew he was incredibly similar to his Uncle in looks as well.]

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[info]instrumented
2016-08-29 11:02 pm UTC (link)
[The question gets just the faintest smile.]

If enough time passes here, and he's still present, I suppose it's possible. But I wouldn't hold my breath, for as much as I hate to tell you.

[He gets the optimism. Really, he does. However Zero has also always been a realist.]

I've stopped trying to apologize for him. [Awhile back.] By this point— [His brows knit.] By this point I feel the only thing that may ease him is if that woman were to arrive.

[Shizuka Hiou.]

I'm sorry, though. I still should say that for you, in regards to my brother.

[He reaches to take one of Ren's hand, but soon after draws closer from the start. His chest and heart so tight. It's with even less hesitation does Zero tip his head down upon the crown of his, eyes closing.]

More so am I sorry that I don't remember you. [He knows just how difficult it was for Ai.] It isn't fair, I know.

[ (Forgive me.) ]

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[info]romanticlove
2016-08-29 11:23 pm UTC (link)
[Ren closes his eyes, taking in the familiar scent that surrounded him, when his father steps close to him and rests his head against his. How long had it been...? It felt like much longer than it actually was. He knew a part of his mother had left the world with him, when his father had gone. The fact that he'd done so fighting had been the only solace because it was just so like him...

All at once, he felt his eyes burn. It was silly to think that somehow he'd inherited his mother's crybaby trait. Today had been full of so much emotional upheaval that he didn't know what to do. He and Ai had been entrusted with someone very important and yet here he was, far and away from both that man and the Ai who knew him.
]

I already told mother... that it doesn't matter. Father is still father... and mother is still mother, no matter what.

[His throat felt tight, just as it had been when he'd seen his mother outside of her apartment building. All he could do was curl his fingers inward, his fists pressed into his lap while he tried to bite back the swell of emotions. Ren, unlike Ai, kept his thoughts to himself more often than not. The only time he spoke up was for her sake, never once wanting to force his feelings on others unless it was to back his sister up when she couldn't express herself properly.]

It's lonely... but I don't mind it so much. Father must feel lonely too, right now.

[Because his mother was hesitating, something he knew must be very frustrating. Not only just her, but his uncle Ichiru was being difficult. Ren had been lucky that Ai loved him almost from the start, once she was done being disappointed that he was not the little sister she had always wanted.]

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[info]instrumented
2016-08-30 02:45 am UTC (link)
[And yet it's Zero, too, who can practically feel the onset of tears. It's never simply been Yuuki. . . only that, for him, it takes somewhat more for them to really come. What happens before anything else, though, it how he moves closer again. Enough to fully, and more properly, wrap his arms around his son— how surreal yet incredible that it is, already never wanting to let him go.

Even if not quite seen, a faint smile colors his voice, maybe wavering a little, before a light huff.]


To say so in such a way. . . [He seems quietly amused] You truly are our child.

[Yet it's Ren's statement to follow which really leaves Zero's heart to stick to the back of his throat. It's true. He feels selfish because of it, even while supporting and being patient for Yuuki all the same. . . but still it does hurt. Even while he knows Yuuki loves him with all she has - and even while he has told her plain and clear that he acknowledges and accepts her feelings towards Kaname - he still can't even speak that word aloud to her. Which is a struggle every day.

Which is why even as Ren says it - amid his own pain - Zero finds himself clenching his teeth to will his emotions down, to a point where his hands upon Ren's back are curling into the fabric of his shirt. It's why he's practically, even if so subtly trembling.]


Sorry. . . [Near silent. This is embarrassing.] To think I'll have you as a part of my future. . .

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[info]romanticlove
2016-08-30 11:40 am UTC (link)
[Ren huffs a bit himself, just closing his eyes and pressing his face into this familiar shoulder when he is allowed to do so. His father was much younger but it didn't change who he was at his core. He still felt familiar to him, scent and mannerism alike.]

Hmm. It's something to look forward too, right?

[He smiles a bit, though already his lashes are wet. It was hitting him just how much he had missed him. His parents had spent nearly a thousand years together, protecting everyone around them during that long time of war. Now there was no war to separate them, only time.]

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[info]instrumented
2016-08-31 03:04 am UTC (link)
[Such familiarity is there for Zero all the same, as well, even while it's also the first time he's actually met Ren. Maybe that just makes sense, though. It doesn't need to be complicated.]

It is. Very much so.

[First Ai, now Ren. Whatever trials there may be at home - and Zero doesn't even need to guess that there will be plenty. Even the basic fact that a vampire is set to lead the Hunters' Association (or, hell, even just being a hunter in general) is something that will attract a great deal of resentment. But regardless to all of it, there's so much good that comes out of the future ahead of him (and Yuuki), as well.

A real family. Something which he hasn't especially felt in a while, now.]


I don't have to wait for then. [It's too long.] Will you tell me about yourself?

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[info]romanticlove
2016-08-31 12:27 pm UTC (link)
[Ren doesn't even know where to begin, to talk about himself. It already felt strange having such a conversation with his mother as it was.]

Well... you already know my name. I was born not long after mother and father decided to be together. Father waited a long time for that, Ai used to tell me.

[He smiles a bit, almost apologetic. He knew his father was a patient person, not unlike himself.]

I grew up with Ai and mother and father by my side.

[He tries to refrain from any extra details - the war, the fighting factions of anti-vampire versus pro-vampire. When Vampires had revealed themselves to humans it seemed to have become a recipe for disaster.]

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[info]instrumented
2016-09-01 01:21 am UTC (link)
I've had to be very patient here as well.

[He faintly smiles. Ren may already have realized this, though. He did just remark on how he must feel lonely. Which he does.]

I'm glad to hear that's how it'll be, though.

[Even while already inherently aware of just how challenging it all will be, though. Ai is one thing. For a hunter and a pureblood to have a child together - even just to be seen together - isn't something that will be very well liked. As it is, and has been for quite awhile now, most of the Association do not like how there's a vampire among their ranks, too. Even more so with how he's set to be the president.

Enough of that, though.

Zero reaches to lightly ruffle Ren's hair.]


Well I could have guessed that sort of thing. I mean what do you like? What kinds of things would we do together?

[A lot, he knows. Just as well as how he already knows the answers. It's just nice to hear them.

Honestly, too, he would be all right if Ren were to tell him of the more serious matters. There's probably a great deal of them. He appreciates the truth, while all at the same time acknowledging why Ren would keep quiet about it all.]


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[info]romanticlove
2016-09-01 01:42 am UTC (link)
[He hadn't learned how difficult things had been until much, much later unfortunately. He'd always grown up close by physically, wherever his parents were he went with them. Ai had been no different. They had Ruka and Akatsuki close at hand more often than not, all for their protection. He had only come to understand what that meant when Ai explained it to him. She was older than him and understood more than he had at the time.

When Zero ruffles his hair, Ren can't help but squeeze his eyes shut, trying to ignore the flood of heat warming his face. He was supposed to be the older of the two in the room right now and yet everything was as he remembered as a child. His father hadn't changed a bit.
]

U-uhm... father taught me to cook and... we both like horses.

[Gosh why was it suddenly so hard to just breathe? Maybe it was because of how fresh the wounds were, having lost him very recently. His mother hadn't lingered long after he'd passed, immediately going about the business of awakening his other father, giving her life for his. Distantly, Ren wonders if it was because she had been in a hurry to go be with his father in the after life. He'd never thought terribly hard on it.]

I'm not very good with guns, like father, though I know how to use one from watching you.

[And hunter weapons were mostly out of the question. He might have Hunter's blood but they still injured him like they would any other Vampire, Aristocrat or Pureblood.]

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[info]instrumented
2016-09-01 04:42 am UTC (link)
[Don't think that he doesn't catch the way you close your eyes like that, Ren, or the flush. It's more endearing than not. Not to mention very much like how Yuuki can be.]

We'll have to do both of those here, then. Although I could have guessed the latter, seeing how I found you in here. There's many different types of food to try in the Dome; all kinds of ethnic ones, too.

[If only Ren had been here this morning when he, Yuuki, and the others all had breakfast together.]

You might enjoy the shooting range anyway. There's guns but also bows and arrows. [just a little exasperated yet wry] The ammunition is made of foam, though.

[Zero then notices (maybe even more so) how his son seems to be struggling with himself, even while he just knows Ren is doing the most he can to not let it show. A father's instinct, maybe, regardless of ho they're from such drastically different points in time.

Without a thought he gets down on his knees before Ren to, this time, much more fully bring him into his arms. Getting rid of the height difference altogether. Pressing a kiss to his temple, he speaks soft and warm.]


I'm so glad to have been able to meet you here, Ren.

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[info]romanticlove
2016-09-01 02:35 pm UTC (link)
[It honestly made his heart feel heavy, just having a normal conversation with him, not unlike how they'd always been. The only difference was that Zero had none of the memories that Ren shared with him.]

Hm... it might be nice to try something different.

[At the comment about the foam bullets Ren can't help but let out a bit of a snort as he tries not to laugh. Clearly some things would never change in the future. As for that hug, the way he spoke to him and tried to comfort him... Ren takes a deep breath, hugging his father back just as tightly. His hair still felt tingly from the warm feeling of having his father run his fingers through it and now his temple did too. He wanted to give in to the urge to cry, just from how familiar all of this was, but that would be giving his father too many clues that his father surely was going to pick up on if he wasn't more careful.]

I'm glad that father is here... because it would have felt worse being alone... without mother or Ai or father.

[Ren wanted to say it was because his father wouldn't be there when and if he might go back, but that was a truth that he didn't want to impose on his family. Ai would eventually see it for herself, should she somehow convince the Wardens to give her memories of their time together or she drank his blood. Whichever came first, really.]

There's... there's so much I wish everyone could remember...!!

[A note of frustration because he honestly feels so out of place, being the only one. Ai would probably scold him should she find out he said anything that he shouldn't have to either parent but it was all he could do to keep his feelings from spilling out.]

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[info]instrumented
2016-09-02 01:03 am UTC (link)
[Zero's feelings over being in Marina have become more and more of a double-edged sword. On one hand, no one belongs here. There are things they all need to return to. On the other, there's so much less stress; there's no resentment aimed at he, Yuuki, and the family they now have. He can't imagine going back to a life where both Ren and Ai have yet to come into the world, and he knows that they along with Yuuki feel the very same, maybe especially as she's been able to meet her father again. . . Although with all of that aside, Zero can't not think of Ichiru as well, knowing that he's been unbearable miserable.]

I'm sorry.

[He says again. In a way it's as though he can practically feel Ren trembling. He's hurting more than any of them. It was one thing with Ai, with there being around twenty years between she and himself and Yuuki. With their son. . . a thousand have already passed. Such a great length of time that it's almost impossible to fully comprehend. So very much can happen even within a single year.]

I'm so sorry. I wish I could, too. Me, Yuuki, Ai. . .

[The embrace tightens. Even though Ren has already said that he and Yuuki are just as much his parents as they are in their future.]

I know it's not at all the same, but if you want to show me through your blood. . .

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[info]romanticlove
2016-09-02 01:54 am UTC (link)
[If anything, he was hoping to avoid his father seeing the future. There was a lot that he didn't know about. The war, his death, his mother's death and his other father's reawakening... and yet he hated having to lie to him. It wasn't right. Part of him wondered if perhaps lying was futile. His father wasn't a child, after all. He could take it.

For a moment, Ren stays quiet, pressed against his father with his eyes closed. He wanted to stay this way forever, but he knew that it wouldn't last forever.
]

Alright... but... some of it might just make you unhappy... it would make mother unhappy too.

[And Ai would definitely not be happy Ren allowed this.]

I don't like keeping secrets, though, and especially not from Father...

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[info]instrumented
2016-09-02 02:26 am UTC (link)
[He isn't expecting it. Not this easily. Ai aside, he knows (even without Ren saying so) Yuuki wouldn't want it, either. Even though it's Zero's decision, and his alone.

. . .and it also leaves him remembering the conversation he had with Yuuki this morning. She's so determined to not tell Haruka about such a great many truths, even though the man deserves to know. She's been beating around the bush. It won't last for long, Zero knows.

The part where Ren says he doesn't like keeping things quiet is just like Zero could imagine. Seeing how he's rather the same. It's why he ultimately told Yuuki about Kaname. Even if in retrospect it also wasn't the most wise idea.]


All right.

[He decides to make a compromise, though. now that he's thought again of what it may mean.]

. . . when you want to, then. When you're ready. We don't have to do it right this moment. [He smiles a bit.] I think right now I want to show you around and continue talking.

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[info]romanticlove
2016-09-02 11:47 am UTC (link)
[Ren actually feels relief that it doesn't all have to come out right then. He didn't want to cause problems but the thought that he was keeping secrets from his family almost felt worse than that.]

I think I'd like that. Talking more... and walking around with father.

[Because then maybe it could help clear his head on all this.]

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[info]instrumented
2016-09-03 03:49 am UTC (link)
[Zero does know it's for the better. Himself aside, it's far more stressful and worrisome for Ren. It isn't the way he wants to start their relationship here.

He smiles to that. Something probably more cute (for lack of a better term) than maybe Ren, or anyone, has really seen. While all at once also so fond.]


To be called that. . . it feels amazing.

[For so much of his life so far, he's honestly never thought he would have a family of his own. While for a good part of that, he hardly felt deserving of something that would end up to be so wonderful.

He gestures to the entrance of the stables.]


Let's go, then.

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[info]romanticlove
2016-09-03 10:24 pm UTC (link)
[Ren was more than happy to follow, but first - ]

Doesn't Ai call you 'papa'?

[It might not be the same, but he's curious.]

I mean... she and I are different, I suppose but father has always been on the same level as her other father.

[He falls into step beside Zero, smiling as well. He felt lighter than air, being able to be close to him like this.]

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[info]instrumented
2016-09-04 04:37 am UTC (link)
She does.

[It's both different, but the same.]

I'm not her real father, but she insists so, anyway. But you're right. She's said that I was around enough as it was when she was growing up that I'm still her father all the same.

[He's the one she came to know, of course, given the circumstances with Kaname.]

Just as you both are my precious family.

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[info]romanticlove
2016-09-04 04:49 am UTC (link)
Ai doesn't think that way! Father is Ai's father too!

[Oops he might be just a teeny bit upset, but it passes.]

Some of the things about Kaname Otou-sama that we've heard... Father is definitely better for Ai and me!

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1/3
[info]instrumented
2016-09-04 04:58 am UTC (link)
[. . .Yeah, he wasn't expecting that.]

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2/3
[info]instrumented
2016-09-04 04:59 am UTC (link)
[And he might have to bite back his (however slight) amusement. Even he knows he's 'better.' Which he'd never say aloud, but still.]

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3/3
[info]instrumented
2016-09-04 05:01 am UTC (link)
I'm. . . glad you think so, then.

[While he shows no anger, there may be something subtly bitter laced within his words.]

That man wasn't exactly [AT ALL] the greatest.

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[info]romanticlove
2016-09-04 05:16 am UTC (link)
What stories does Father have? We only heard weird things from Ichijou-san and the chairman.

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[info]instrumented
2016-09-04 05:25 am UTC (link)
I wouldn't call them 'stories.'

[This he could have seen coming.]

. . .And anything I tell you would probably spoil the mood.

[Does he still want to know after hearing that?]

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[info]romanticlove
2016-09-04 10:25 pm UTC (link)
No? The ones I've heard seem pretty unbelievable. Then again, Ichijou-san always says weird things in general...

[Sorry not sorry.]

Why - are father's stories scarier?

[Excuse him while he tilts his head a bit, trying to coax a proper answer out of his father-!!]

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