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Kazuki Makabe ([info]soukyuu) wrote in [info]marinanova,
@ 2016-06-30 22:30:00

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Entry tags:charlotte charles, kazuki makabe, lelouch vi britannia, soushi minashiro

382 - action
( OTA x2 )

[It's been much easier to get Soushi out and about today. There may be a reason for it, but Kazuki doesn't bother trying to figure it out. He's far, far too at ease for that kind of thing.

With their hands laced, Kazuki practically is dragging him all around. He's already mentioned Soushi to a few of the friends he's made here. It's about time that he introduce them. Although of course meeting new people is good, too.]



( closed to Soushi )

[It's quite possible that Soushi has never once witnessed him in such a happy mood, and that's saying quite a lot. To be honest it's kind of embarrassing, with Kazuki often catching himself.

So far the day has been going very well, too, ever since waking up. At some point they looked into taking one of the boats out, thankful that the bots were around to run it.

Later on at some point and they're on the ferris wheel- something he really had only ever heard about. Curious as he is, Kazuki can't help but stand near and gazing out the window. He's of course been much further up in the air than this, but never had the time to take in the view. Piloting isn't at all meant for that sort of thing, or enjoyment in general. So this is plenty special.]



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[info]pushedback
2016-07-01 05:30 pm UTC (link)
[ Speaking of friends that absolutely ship these guys — hello! Have a Chuck! It might be difficult to tell how much she's enjoying this prison considering how bright and cheerful she is most days, but trust me, she's having a ball of a time. ]

Kazuki, hi! This must be your friend that I've heard so much about.

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[info]soukyuu
2016-07-02 02:58 am UTC (link)
Chuck! [Definitely happy as well. It's kind of embarrassing but he can't entirely help it.] Yeah, this is Soushi. [He then glances to him.] You know. The one I've been helping out at her diner.

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[info]festumborn
2016-07-06 09:55 pm UTC (link)
[Typically he is not a very social butterfly. Give him a library and free time and Soushi is more than happy spending his days researching just about everything. However, it is not a typical day. He finds himself allowing Kazuki to drag him around by their linked hands and that means he's going to be meeting all of his friend's friends.

Soushi looks over at Chuck when they run across her and then glances at Kazuki when he explains who she is. Idly he does think that Chuck is an odd name for a girl to have but he doesn't feel the urge to ask her about it today of all days.]


Nice to meet you, Chuck-san. Kazuki has spoken of you in length as well.

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[info]pushedback
2016-07-08 04:07 am UTC (link)
[ They might have some things in common, then. She traveled the world through books when she was younger and although she has other things to occupy her now, the library is a good place to be. ]

He has? All good I hope?

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[info]soukyuu
2016-07-08 05:53 am UTC (link)
[Count him in as well. While Kazuki has never been the studious one, or much of a reader, to a degree it's because of how the state of things are at home. Before Marina, between either of the Domes, he's never seen so many books before in his life.]

Of course. [Truth! He sucks at lying, anyway.] I've really enjoyed being able to both work with and learn from you, and you've been real nice, too.

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[info]festumborn
2016-07-11 05:43 pm UTC (link)
[There isn't a whole lot of fiction left in his world but Soushi does enjoy learning about the world through what history books they do have. Here the library is like nothing he's ever seen so he takes advantage of it.]

I'm not sure Kazuki knows how to say anything bad about a person. [A slight upturn of his lips may reveal that he's teasing. Or that he just finds it amusing in general.]

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[info]pushedback
2016-07-12 04:35 am UTC (link)
Well, it's nice to finally meet you. You should come eat at the bar some day, when we're back in the old prison.

[ She ships you so hard. So cute, you two. Can she be flower girl? ]

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[info]soukyuu
2016-07-12 04:48 am UTC (link)
[He really doesn't.]

If I can get him out of the library, sure.

[Just teasing as well.]

I hope we're here for at least a little bit longer. It's so beautiful.

[. . .Since Maya isn't here, yes. You certainly can.]

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[info]festumborn
2016-07-12 05:03 am UTC (link)
I've been by the bar a few times since Kazuki started to work there but it appears that we simply have bad timing when it comes to crossing paths.

[Glances over at Kazuki for that statement.]

I get out of the library sometimes. After all, I have to sleep at some point. Not to mention that there is no convienent vending machine only a few steps away.

[Yeah that's... kind of a personal joke that only Kazuki will really get but oh well.]

It certainly is different for a change. Are you enjoying yourself, Chuck?

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[info]imperious
2016-07-04 08:20 pm UTC (link)
[ ...Well. Aren't you two -- cute. Lelouch lifts his eyebrows a little, not in a hostile way so much as... really, two grown men holding hands like preteens. But it's not overt PDA, so he just offers up a small smile. ]

It's a lovely place, isn't it?

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[info]soukyuu
2016-07-04 09:29 pm UTC (link)
[Meanwhile of course Kazuki is more so oblivious. Rather, he's so pleased with everything. Well, Soushi is still a teen. . .]

Mhm. Very much so. I wish we could stay in this Dome, instead.

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[info]imperious
2016-07-06 08:28 pm UTC (link)
[ So noted, cradle-robber. ]

Heh. See if you still feel that way once we're returned.

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[info]festumborn
2016-07-06 10:01 pm UTC (link)
[Soushi, despite feeling more relaxed, does notice the raise in eyebrows. However he does not care enough of this stranger's opinion to tear himself away from Kazuki.]

This place is pleasant but perhaps not so pleasant that I would want to stay here on a long-term basis.

[There's this voice in the back of his head quietly whispering that he's too complacent in this dome. That he should be looking for a way to return to their world rather than enjoying the activities this place provides but it's not loud enough to overcome Kazuki's ideas to enjoy themselves here.]

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[info]soukyuu
2016-07-06 10:23 pm UTC (link)
[They're 19 and 22. Excuse you, too.

He almost wants to pout with both of those replies, but it's a fleeting thought. A similar sentiment is lingering around as well. Complacency - genuine comfort and happiness - has no place here, or anywhere in Marina Nova.

But he also (still) can't help himself. The feelings of guilt aren't so prominent as they usually are. He knows Soushi is right.]


Well, we still can remain alert while seeing what this place has to offer.

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[info]imperious
2016-07-20 09:06 pm UTC (link)
[ Comment rescinded!

Lelouch smiles back, a bit bland. Can we? he wonders. Can we really? He's not sure how capable of remaining alert he is, under the effects of this place. ...Especially the effect that makes him less inclined to mind.

He doesn't really mind the PDA, though... it's just -- noteworthy. Like dozens upon dozens of other things about you both. ]


We can try, at any rate. [ ...More revealing than he meant to be, Lelouch huffs out a breath. Fine, might as well admit: ] I've found it difficult to maintain concern for any significant length of time.

[ Like now, for example. He's already smiling again. ]

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[info]festumborn
2016-07-22 02:11 pm UTC (link)
[Hey, just because he didn't have a body for a couple of years doesn't mean he has to be 19.

Soushi does share the same sentiment as Lelouch in this matter. Already he knows that Kazuki feels more comfortable in MarinaNova than he does so being here has probably only made it more-so. While he, on the other hand, was always ready for something to happen. Now it's pushed to the back of his mind - not completely suppressed but no longer one of the top concerns.]


I suppose we should be grateful that we are not running around completely reckless.

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[info]soukyuu
2016-07-22 10:40 pm UTC (link)
[In the end Kazuki simply has that kind of hope (while maybe also determination). He will always be at the ready for what may come. . .Or at least as much as he's able to be.

Still, he's with both Soushi and Lelouch on that. It's freeing. It isn't going to get to him right now.]


Of course. [More so directed to Lelouch, then, in regards to the other day when their resources were dwindling.] I'm also glad to see you're doing better.

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[info]festumborn
2016-07-06 10:18 pm UTC (link)
[If he has witnessed Kazuki in such a happy mood it was long ago, back before either of them knew the truth of the world. Back when they were simply children living a carefree life on a peaceful island. Back when it wouldn't be embarrassing because kids aren't often embarrassed by expressing such joy.

Still, Soushi does like the smile that's settled on his friend's face and he's been finding himself smiling back in response.

It isn't their island, the familiarity of the mountainside or long-known faces but he's still finding it enjoyable to be dragged around. He's pulled his hair up so that it doesn't touch the back of his neck and allows a cool breeze to wash over him undisturbed. A pair of swimtrunks were worn most of the day along with a light-colored button-up shirt so as to not get a sunburn while they spent the day outside.

Now Kazuki has managed to talk him onto a spinning contraption that looks as though it hasn't had maintenance in a couple of years. Honestly, he shouldn't feel safe in such a machine but such thoughts don't seem to linger long in his mind today.

Soushi isn't really looking out the window. There have been better views for him to look at and instead he finds his gaze drawn to Kazuki instead. Watching Kazuki watching the darkening sky and others milling about down below. It's more enjoyable to watch the emotions that cross his friend's face.

He isn't even momentarily distracted when fireworks suddenly fill the sky with sparkling light. He doesn't look away from his friend but instead a question spills out of his mouth that has been in his thoughts for a couple of weeks now.]


Do you want to stay here? In MarinaNova, that is.

[Not this particular dome but simply in general.]

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[info]soukyuu
2016-07-06 11:18 pm UTC (link)
[For the most part the silence is comfortable. It's nothing new. On top of it he can feel the way Soushi is looking at him, and rather intently at that. In comparison the fireworks catch his attention.

. . . Only, that is until the silence is broken, and with such a question.

Maybe he's been expecting it. It doesn't really take their mental link for it, either. Kazuki tenses a little either way, and he doesn't turn to look at him again. Not just yet.

He doesn't immediately reply, either. The one hand he has upon the bar by the window tightens just a little, right alongside his heart.]


I like having you by my side again. Sometimes that's what makes up my dreams.

[It counts as an answer. He still is at ease due to whatever has been going on in this new Dome, but a part of his subconscious is still peeking through the cracks.]

I know and accept what's happened back home. I know I'm needed, and I'll do anything to help maintain the little peace we've found and are working on, but— [Something squeezes his heart even tighter, almost making it hard to breathe. More quietly, then-] . . . There's a part of me who does want to.

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[info]festumborn
2016-07-06 11:56 pm UTC (link)
[Silence between them hasn't been uncomfortable in a long while, not since they reconnected all those years ago. They don't need words to understand each other anymore. It's just habit when they do use them these days.

He hadn't meant to ask the question. Not really. Sure it had been there for a while but if he didn't ask it out loud then Kazuki didn't have to answer it.

They both know, though. Kazuki has settled in. He has a job, he enjoys the activities, he's making this a home for the both of them. Soushi is different. He researches and studies and looks for any and all information that might possibly lead them to a way out of here. Their apartment is just an apartment. It has more than the room he had back at ALVIS but a room is just a room to him. The only sense of home he does have is Kazuki.

It's stupid. He shouldn't have asked because he already knows the answer to his own question. Yet he can't bring himself to take it back, to stop Kazuki from responding because part of him needs to hear it.

Soushi listens to the other without a word in response. Without surprise. It is the answer he expected to hear. Instead he waits, waits until Kazuki is done.

And in response to such a heartfelt reply he only has one follow-up question:]


Why?

[Ah, maybe he should be more specific because there is a lot that single worded question could be asking.]

Why is it important to have me with you? Isn't the boy enough?

[He isn't questioning Kazuki's commitment to their island - or the secondary one they'll be forced to live on. That's something Soushi could never do because he is fully aware that his friend was willing to give up his existence for it - for peace.]

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[info]soukyuu
2016-07-07 12:17 am UTC (link)
[Kazuki knows he's being selfish and irresponsible. Maybe even as if he's forgotten the endless desperation they've all gone through, or the countless lives that have been lost.

But he doesn't- he hasn't. He'll never forget who he is, who he's become. He's so far from still being the kid who didn't care one ounce about his own existence.

Yet he can't deny these newer feelings. They leave a streak of guilt miles wide within him.

The question to follow is also predictable, yet it stings, digging sharp and deep.

His fingers grip the bar even further. Almost enough to leave him slightly trembling. Something he knows Soushi will notice no matter ho much he wants to conceal it.]


It's not the same. He's precious to me, too. He means the world to me and to everyone else. But you— You're not simply one in the same with him. [He doesn't want to do this right now.] The one I want is you.

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[info]festumborn
2016-07-07 12:46 am UTC (link)
[He doesn't tear his eyes away, couldn't even if he wanted to. Soushi takes it all in from what he eyes can see to what he can feel across their connection. None of it is missed.

Even if Kazuki said that their island and their friends didn't matter, he'd know it wasn't the truth. But he does believe these words, the ones that are selfish and irresponsible because that too is a part of who Kazuki is.

They've already said goodbye once from both of their perspective and Kazuki has done it an additional time as well. It was forced but they've done it and Soushi can only imagine that the second time is a repeat of the first. Where he goes willingly but is unwilling to let Kazuki do the same. He knows how hard that was on Kazuki the first time and it was probably worse the second.

Soushi gets up from his seat, the car swaying with his movement as he steps up to behind the other. A hand lays gently over Kazuki's, fingers moving to get him to release the bar - to hold it in his own as they've been doing all day.

He releases a breath of air he hadn't realize he'd trapped in his chest and watches as it causes the hair on the back of Kazuki's neck to flutter.]


Why? Why does it have to be me?

[It's a loaded question. They aren't talking about him versus his reborn self now. There have been many others. Shouko, Maya, Canon - it could have been any of them but it isn't.]

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[info]soukyuu
2016-07-07 01:18 am UTC (link)
[In the past, however especially in battle - and even more particularly when Soushi was in a Fafner just the same as him - he often never wanted to leave his side, he didn't want to be unable to see him, despite being able to Cross whenever they wanted. There were so many consistent risks they couldn't escape from. Yet simultaneously, Kazuki believed in and trusted him completely to part and go on a different part of their mission.

It's that part that naturally made their separation difficult, no matter how much he understood the reasons. This last time there was no coming back, and it hurt more than how Kazuki could put it into words. It was especially so during the initial weeks after (or maybe months is more like it).

He lets the other remove his hand, fingers curling in and lacing with his without thought. The physical connection already settling him again.

. . .Only not, too. He can hardly breathe and wonders if he's still shaking a little, even with the slight and warm chill from Soushi's breath so close. Maybe Kazuki is holding his hand too tightly.

(Don't), he almost says in contrast. Don't come so close again, don't ask that kind of question. Even if he doesn't have to think about the answer.

Don't make him even more comfortable and warm and safe when there's the possibility even here, in this MarinaNova, where one second a person could be here, and the next, simply gone.

He can't lose him all over again.]


Because it's always been you.

[Even while drowning in guilt over what happened with Soushi's eye, and the years of hardly even communicating with each other that stretched between them. A feeling that he knows now is baseless. Soushi never once blamed him.]

There is no real reason. [He can't find the words.] Just you. Only you.

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[info]festumborn
2016-07-07 02:18 am UTC (link)
[Until recently Soushi has always been far more safe than the Fafner pilots. He'd be deep within ALVIS' bunker, commanding battles from the relative safety of the Siegfried System. There was always a chance of the Festum penetrating that deeply into the complex but it wasn't nearly as dangerous as being out on the battlefield where he was sure to be hurt. Where death was sometimes a constant companion. Though no where was really safe.

They'd gotten themselves involved in the fight again knowing that their chances of assimilation were impossibly high, they didn't expect to come back this time. Soushi just so happened to be the one to go first.

On a normal day this would be it. This would be all of the physical contact he would initiate. But it isn't a normal day. He steps closer until his chest is flush with Kazuki's back and lifts his free arm to wrap around the other's shoulders. It isn't necessary to keep Kazuki in place, he knows this but does it anyway because it's about giving comfort. He tilts his head down until the tip of his nose brushes the nape of Kazuki's neck and inhales deeply.

It's not surprising to catch a scent of the sea - of the salty air that always seems to cling to his friend even when he's not been near the ocean.

What they're doing here, it's dangerous. One of them could leave in the blink of an eye - no chance for goodbyes even. Soushi has hurt Kazuki in ways that can't be seen. It's a wound that can't be touched.

When Kazuki speaks he exhales almost as deeply as he inhaled because part of him has known. Has always known but was too blind to realize. Or just too inept in such an area to see it. Even when they weren't talking they were still bound.

Soushi was protecting the island because Kazuki was on it. Not that everyone else wasn't important but Kazuki was always on his mind.]


You're impossible. [He doesn't say it with cruelty. His arm does tighten around Kazuki, squeezing him a little.

Technically Soushi is the one who started all of this. They didn't have to have this conversation but they are.]


What am I supposed to do with you? [No seriously because they are moving into territory that he is extremely bad at.]

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[info]soukyuu
2016-07-07 02:58 am UTC (link)
[To some degree it's almost amazing they even made it as far as they did. How, in the end, and although Soushi wasn't there to witness it firsthand, hope really did pull through. Watatsumi Island is not and never will be Tatsumiya Island. Everyone knows this, but it's not to say that none of them put forth effort into making it the best that they can. Kazuki included.

Still, there's the part of him who had wanted to go with Soushi. Both of them at the same time. But, again, that's his selfish side speaking again, isn't it?

Now he's wondered just how far his life does extend. He knows he's no longer human; at least not wholly and one hundred percent through and though. Is it the same as how Kouyou and Misao are seemingly ageless? Or something else? . . .Would Soushi have been that way? Maybe there's no way to know in general. Kazuki doesn't want to live forever.

His eyes close when he begins to feel the start of tears, but more so with how much further Soushi draws in against him. He finally lets out the breath that was stuck in his chest.

Within the embrace is safety and comfort. It's home. They're lingering thoughts, and happen without him exactly paying attention to them, but they settle deep and stick hard. He leans back enough so that if Soushi wasn't there, then he'd stumble or fall completely. Something that he knows with absolute certainty won't happen.

Kazuki's free hand reaches up to draw his arm further down until Soushi's hand covers his heart, which is beating rather heavily now. Their laced hands move up as well until they're just under his chin as he bows his head a little.]


You do as you've always done.

[There's a bit of a smile within the reply, as quietly amused as it is, in a way, bittersweet.

He's not entirely sure what he's doing, either. Set aside acting on his emotions.]

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