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No. But I think he was also really upset I was talking to him on the roof for some reason? [She still doesn't understand that and it feels like their problem in miniature that they just weren't communicating or anticipating each other well.] Or maybe just for telling him or...because Pavel was involved. I don't know. He was scolding my word choices and questioning everything I was saying.
[She brushes her hair back.]
It's like the more I was afraid of losing him the more he made me feel like I was screwing things up. And maybe I was.
I felt like he was about to break things off and instead of gripping tighter for once I just let go.
[This is more than she's said about the break up to anyone.]