[How can he say that and believe it? How can he feel that she hasn't failed him, or at the very least is the root cause of all of the pain in his life. Even now she can barely believe it. And even though she knows he hated Kaname, he can still tell her that he is with her, and that it is okay?
How...?
Eyes full of unshed tears she stares at him, and tries to keep her lips from trembling. She has to swallow thickly. There's no words for Ai. It is surreal. The fact that, somehow, in spite of everything, she has managed to raise a child all her own is still incredible.]
Why do you stay by my side?
[She left the academy. Her family has hurt his. She is the very thing he has hated for so many years. She has even become pregnant with the person he hated most of all. Most people would run far way, and never look back. She has even erased his memories, and tried to remove herself from his life.
The tears that slide down her cheeks can't be held back.
The prospect of being left alone again is so unbearably painful. If she makes too many mistakes he might leave. If they're more than just friends she might lose him. She had been promised forever and look what had happened to it? With Zero she doesn't even have that. She can't hurt him. She doesn't want to. But if she opens herself up, and in the end it all amounts to nothing, she isn't sure if her heart can take that kind of loss again. It hurts, and it's painful.
She lifts her free hand up to her heart.]
It hurts. [Her heart. She closes her eyes and clutches her chest.] My heart feels hollow. Every day it feels like it's crumbling to pieces. I keep trying to glue it back together, but it can't fit in the same way it did before. [It's only an imitation of what it once was.] I'm scared, Zero. Because all it would take is a pin prick to shatter it back to the ground. And if that happens, I don't know if I can gather up the pieces again.