[Yet she's wrong. She'll always be wrong. He doesn't blame her for even a moment, and the only thing that's upsetting is how he can't seem to convince her otherwise.
His heart both stalls and sits at the back of his throat with the way she moves. Immediately all he can initially think is to remember back when she did the same; so far back when she had first promised she would always be on his side. It aches so much more now.
For several long moments he can't find any words. It's almost that he can't speak altogether. Instead within that silence do both of his hands lift to cover hers, fingers curling slightly beneath. They feel so small.]
I couldn't bear to hurt you instead.
[So quiet. He doesn't have to make a conscious effort in order for him to recognize just how much she's aching.
Such a great deal, too, is all his fault. Telling her - and even Ai also stating it to her - about what ultimately happens with Kuran may have been such a huge mistake, of which he's unable to take back. Yet it's a double-edged sword. Had he never said a word, should she have learned in a different way, she would have been completely livid with him.
. . .At the same time, dealing with her anger might not have felt nearly as he is with her misery.]
Can't I say the same for you?
[They're both terrible hypocrites. Not simply in these regards, either.]
I want to be there for you. In any possible way as you'll let me in for. [His grip tightens a little.] I only feel selfish and greedy. I know I can't force you to do or feel any of this. I'm not trying to. But. . .I don't want you to further ache by expressing yourself as well.