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Jae-Ha ([info]cloudline) wrote in [info]marinanova,
@ 2016-05-03 19:15:00

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Entry tags:damon salvatore, hak, jae-ha, kija, shin-ah

374 ♫ shared dream
Warning: Cut for descriptions and linked images of (child) abuse and violence.
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[The scene that plays out is more of a memory than it is a dream. Still crystal clear thirteen years later.

Jae-Ha is standing within a small room made of stone. The door is made of wood and there are no windows; he's almost too tall for the low ceiling. A boy is against the wall, wrists and ankles bearing thick, heavy shackles which are bolted to the wall and down on the floor via equally thick and long chains. It's obvious who that boy is: Jae-Ha, himself, around 12 years old. He's battered and bruised before another man in the room. His hair is a vivid emerald green, like Jae-Ha's own, long and wavy, like seaweed.

The man - Garou being his name - holds no reservations in laying kick after kick, punch after punch, upon the young Jae-Ha. In near-desperation he fights back, but Garou always seems to one up him. Soon he's fallen to his back, and Garou grips his right leg tight— the very leg which bears dark green dragon scales and razor-sharp claws for toenails. He sneers to the boy how the outside world would never accept someone with such a leg or the power it holds; how someone so monstrous shouldn't exist in the first place. How there's no use in continuing to try and escape.

The beating continues until Garou finally leaves, as irate as he had originally come. The boy slumps back against the wall. He fights against his chains and pulls them taut, to the point where they cut into his wrists which begin to bleed. At some point he gives up, and the tears he always bites back spill, anyway.

Jae-Ha can only watch on the entire time, his younger self and Garou obviously unable to see him. He doesn't have the energy to try and force the dream away. It happens all the time; he's grown used to let it simply play out. Maybe even apathetic.

What Jae-Ha doesn't seem to immediately notice is there's someone else in the room, having witnessed the entire thing.]



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[info]backoftheline
2016-05-04 03:08 am UTC (link)
[The scene that had played out before him made his stomach churn and blood boil simultaneously. He knew a little. Jae-Ha had once made light of his childhood, and it had seemed like a very strange and backwards village.

He would never have believed it was something like this, however.

Furious, fists clenched and he shook from head to toe as he stared after Garou. The entire time he had tried to move-- anything to break up the scene that had happened before him, but he had somehow been frozen in place, unable to take a single step until now.]</small>

That monster- [Claws sharp and at the ready, his hand had already grown, and he itched to show that insane man a thing or two.] I will make him apologize tenfold and then beg forgiveness!

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[info]cloudline
2016-05-04 05:28 am UTC (link)
They can't hear or see us, Kija. You wouldn't have any effect.

[He doesn't look to Kija just yet. The way he replies is nearly empty; a different kind of apathy or being in no rush. Of course Kija would act like he is.

Jae-Ha more so doesn't like how this has been seen by someone else.]


That man is long dead by now, anyway.

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[info]backoftheline
2016-05-05 03:11 am UTC (link)
[Hands curling into fists he trembles with the unresolved frustration and the inability to make a difference in the moment. To be unable to act is one of the most difficult things for him to deal with.]

Still...! [Still. Frustrated and at a loss, he turns to the taller dragon.]

Are you all right, Jae-Ha?

[But how could he be?]

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[info]cloudline
2016-05-05 05:15 am UTC (link)
[Either way he doesn't especially react to Kija's demeanor or fury. He kind of doesn't care.]

It's hardly anything new. I'm fine.

[Yet there are no pleasantries with those words. There (still) isn't much of anything.]

All of the generations of the Ryokuryuu were treated like that.

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[info]backoftheline
2016-05-08 04:42 pm UTC (link)
[Just because it is not new doesn't mean it wont affect certain people.]

It is a despicable thing to do. [Moving over, he lifts a hand to rest it upon his shoulder.] I am sorry, Jae-Ha.

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[info]cloudline
2016-05-09 02:43 am UTC (link)
[He knows.

There's some small part to Jae-Ha who actually wants to defend Garou, as he was subjected to the same thing. Their differences lie in his predecessor believing and feeling there was nothing for him out in the free world.]


No. [He doesn't move from the touch. Being comforted over something he's never told a soul about - save maybe only for Gi-Gan - is something he's never received.] I'm just sorry you had to see that. No one was supposed to know.

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[info]backoftheline
2016-05-09 03:22 am UTC (link)
You needn't apologize.

[But it must be upsetting for him.]

I- [His hand tightens, a show of camaraderie.] The two of us are like brothers. We are friends, and the greatest of allies. [He would never betray Jae-Ha. Not ever.] If it is painful to keep inside, you do not have to suffer alone. You have family. We- all of of us, the others included, are a family.

[He only means it genuinely.]

But I am sorry that this part of your past has been so forcefully exposed. All of us care deeply about you, Jae-Ha. You are not a monster. [He turns so that he can face him, words direct, and brow furrowed. There's only honesty.]

When I see you, I see a strong, independent and capable person who finds beauty in the most unlikely of places. A person who cares deeply about the world. Your leg has given you the ability to not only help your captain and crew, but many innocents, and your comrades now. There is not a single thing detestable about you or it.

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[info]cloudline
2016-05-09 08:39 am UTC (link)
[For one reason or another the remark about them being as brothers leaves Jae-Ha embittered. Even while, yes, he by now he also sees Kija and the others as family - as his home - there's also something he's agitated over. Except he can't really tell what at all it might be. Maybe simply because this situation is more highly emotionally charged than he's ever really felt before.

He also simply does not know how to react to such praise and admiration. For as flaunting as he can be, he (still) doesn't always have the greatest view of himself.]


I know that.

[It's a quiet response to start. He doesn't fully meet Kija's gaze, but at the least he doesn't jerk away from the touch upon his shoulder.

What he does want to shake off with everything he has is the way all of this - with all of Kija comforting and reassuring him - leaves him to feel as if his heart is in a vice. It grips tight, white-knuckled and trying to take his breath away. And it hurts. He's inwardly already cursing at himself, because since when did this last bother him? The dream is remnants of an old memory. One that he's grown past.

A memory and experience he's proven wrong.

Both arms at his sides, one of his hands tightens into a fist. He doesn't realize that it's so much so that he nearly trembles.]


. . . I know that already. All of it.

[He still doesn't meet Kija's eyes. He can't.]

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(no subject) - [info]backoftheline, 2016-05-14 05:31 pm UTC
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[info]thedarkdragon
2016-05-05 02:37 am UTC (link)
[He watches in horror at the abuse being heaped on the child. He recognizes the kid as Jae-Ha almost immediately and actually moves to intercept the attack.

Only to find himself sprawled out onto the ground himself because there is nothing there. The abuse goes on with Hak in the middle as if he's not there at all.

It's only then that he spots the Jae-Ha he knows watching the whole scene with detached emotion.]


I can see why you weren't in Ryokuryuu village when we went to find you.

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[info]cloudline
2016-05-05 05:15 am UTC (link)
[Even as Jae-Ha does see when Hak moves, he doesn't say anything. He can do what his wants. The other two in the room are only images.]

I left and never looked back. Good riddance to it.

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[info]shydragon
2016-05-06 01:11 am UTC (link)
[The anger for his fellow dragon boils over. He was used to his own cruel treatment by villagers but Ao never hurt him. Sometimes he would be shoved aside and yelled at but never hurt. Ao loved him...he loved Ao, the man was all he had in the world for so long. So to see the other dragon beating Jae-Ha, he was ready to attack.]

Stop!

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[info]cloudline
2016-05-06 04:14 am UTC (link)
[Jae-Ha doesn't look over to the other when he acts. He only holds out an arm to stop him.]

They can't see us, Shin-Ah. Nor hear us.

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[info]shydragon
2016-05-06 04:39 am UTC (link)
[Stopping in his tracks he looks to the other dragon.]

...

[He's mad but the dragon is okay here...so he opts for hugging him instead.]

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[info]cloudline
2016-05-06 09:33 am UTC (link)
[The action is hardly something he could have expected. Well, maybe from Yona, or Zeno. but not Shin-Ah. Not that he doesn't think the other dragon is kind (far from it).

So it's why he initially just freezes. He still doesn't like even the idea of anyone witnessing such a scene. Or maybe some may believe it's all some illusion with no basis at all.

Yet either way Jae-Ha is affected. Being comforted over something, especially this, isn't anything familiar. Except maybe from Gi-Gan. . . the single person he opened up to a bit more.

More quietly, unsure of what to even say—]


Shin-Ah. . .

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[info]shydragon
2016-05-06 08:59 pm UTC (link)
[He knew something like this could help a lot...and seeing what the other dragon has been through hurts.

So he was ready to move if the other needed space. Shin-ah wasn't good with social things all the time but...he tries.]


....

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[info]cloudline
2016-05-07 03:52 am UTC (link)
[He does accept it all the same. It takes another few long and silent moments but he does somewhat return the gesture. One arm lifted and wrapped around to Shin-Ah's back.

It's only for a brief time before he puts space between them again.]


I wish you hadn't seen that.

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[info]shydragon
2016-05-08 03:31 pm UTC (link)
[Shin-ah was glad he returned it...he hoped it helped before he pulls back.]

...sorry.

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[info]cloudline
2016-05-09 02:43 am UTC (link)
No it's all right. [A (very) faint smile to him.] What's done is done, right? It's of the past. I escaped from this place.

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(no subject) - [info]shydragon, 2016-05-09 03:54 pm UTC
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[info]thatasshole
2016-05-08 04:40 pm UTC (link)
[This is the weirdest of the dreams Damon has been in so far ... not because of the ugly child abuse, but because that green-haired guy just stands there and watches it.]

What the hell is this?

[He had figured out pretty quickly that he himself couldn't do anything, not without forcing himself into Jae-Ha's head and taking control of the dream himself. But still.]

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[info]cloudline
2016-05-09 02:42 am UTC (link)
[Damon is familiar enough, or at least as much as a single conversation could bring. He still is essentially a stranger.]

An old memory.

[That's it.]

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[info]thatasshole
2016-05-10 12:02 am UTC (link)
Right. [Now he registers that the child getting beat up is Jae-Ha.] Well, do you mind changing the channel? Because replaying this isn't healthy for anyone.

[He's playing casual, like the scene doesn't actually bother him, because it shouldn't. There's no reason for him to care about the pain of a complete stranger, or for the scene to send him back into his own memories. Comparing this man to his father was like comparing a graffiti tagger to Michelangelo. Yes, they both tossed paint — or their children — around, but while anybody could use a can of spray paint, there was only one Michelangelo. Giuseppe Salvatore was a master in the art of child abuse.

Which also didn't matter, because Damon had put all of that behind him. Of course. So whatever he's feeling right now isn't empathy or compassion or the triggering of old wounds. It's just indigestion. Yeah.]

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[info]cloudline
2016-05-10 01:11 am UTC (link)
[Jae-Ha doesn't really expect pity (he doesn't want it), or anything of the like. He simply doesn't want anyone to know anything about all of this. No one needs to be aware, be that unfamiliar or otherwise. He's a little less annoyed over is Yona and the others know - just as they also are the only people who have seen his right leg. Gi-Gan and the other pirates were in the know (most especially the latter), but they never necessarily saw his dragon's leg, full of it scales and claws, for themselves. While Jae-Ha does love his ability that it grants him, to the point where he has absolute control over such power, he, himself, doesn't like its appearance at all.

But that's beside the point. . . . As is the fact that he doesn't exactly know what "changing the channel" means.

He also is quite predictably irritable.]


You really think I can control this? It's not as if anyone else should even be here.

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[info]thatasshole
2016-05-12 12:12 am UTC (link)
Have you tried, or are you just assuming you can't because stuff is happening that you don't like?

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[info]cloudline
2016-05-12 04:07 am UTC (link)
I have. Every single time I see it.

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[info]thatasshole
2016-05-14 01:32 pm UTC (link)
Doesn't look like you tried this time.

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