Everyone at Torchwood dies young. [Not fatalistic or dramatic or anything, just so matter of fact. He's watched it. Tosh and Owen and Suzie, not to mention the hundreds of people at Torchwood London.] It's easier sometimes just to keep your head down and keep going. It's not like any of us have much time to learn to live with it.
[Its why he doesn't want to leave this place. Because it's a way out, a second chance that he knows he doesn't get at home. Here he can have friends and go out and do things besides worry if today's the day is damn job gets him killed.] I guess now that I don't have that to fall back on I don't really know how to live with things like this. Before I just always accepted that they'd be over soon enough.