[Why have they had this ridiculous back and forth between them for so long? They've wasted so much time pretending this doesn't exist, that they don't both want this. All the lectures he's gotten from Jack about the limitations of 21st century mentality feel like they finally click into place today. How caring about more than one person doesn't mean loving either of them less or take away what you can have with either of them. He loves Jack, he loves their relationship, adores him for being his hero and his lover and everything in between but he can still want Spike as badly as he does, is still allowed to pull him as close as he can until they are both balanced precariously on the edge of their bar stools, pressed together for balance and because he wants it, the same way he wants to keep kissing him like nothing else matters but how good this feels.]