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Yuuki Kuran (trappedinresin) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2016-03-19 21:16:00

Entry tags:

ai kuran, fai d flourite, kazuki makabe, sebastian michaelis, souji okita, yuuki kuran, yuuri shibuya, zero kiryuu

Day 367 - Action
[Evening - Within Trois Park.]

[If she could disappear into the ground she would. Simply melt into the earth beneath her and lose all sense of feeling. Become the grass, or the trees maybe. Living, but unfeeling, incapable of being hurt by the many things all around her. Life would be so simple if there was a switch, to simply turn her emotions off and not have to feel the very real crushing weight within her chest. Instead, as though to mock her very real pain, the greenery around her shifted and changed, mirroring her emotions. It was out of season, but where the cherry tree against her back should have been leafy greens, pink blossoms bloomed and fell in excess. Like the tears that streamed silent down her cheeks, they fell to the ground, and covered her and the earth beneath in pink and white petals, like snow. It zapped some of her strength, something that only happened here in Marina, but she could hardly put a stop to the way her emotions ran wild. Butterflies fluttered around the scene, and would seem out of place if not for the large, blood-like butterfly wings that decorated her back.

She had lost everything. Everything she had fought so hard to accomplish had fallen into ruin. Even though she had tried her hardest, even though she wanted more desperately than anyone to work for peace, and to stop and save her brother... it hadn't made one single difference. He had been right. 'No matter how hard you try, sometimes it will amount to nothing.']

Oniisama...

[It was all her fault. Now he was gone, frozen forever without a heart. What had she done wrong? She had tried so desperately to be the person that he had wanted, but she had failed. And now eternity would be hers to spend alone. She was a mother, she learned, all in the same day that apparently she had become a widow, or close enough. How was she supposed to be a mother, when she couldn't even protect the one person she had always loved? And now of all times? She was only seventeen. One year older than the girl who looked just like her and claimed to be her daughter. There was no doubt that she was. But Yuuki didn't know how to be there for or take care of her, when her own world was crashing all around. It was better if the girl ran as far away from her as she could.

Everything I love or get close to dies. As though her touch was toxic. One after another. Her mother and father, and now Kaname, too. Zero and Ai-- they weren't safe around someone like her. Eyes brimming with tears, she helplessly lifted a hand up to scrub at them. Her soul hurt, and she didn't know how to move forward from it.]

[OOC: After ICly learning that her fiance is gone after meeting with her future daughter. She wont have been home all day! Sorry for the mourning post, I had to get it out of the way :'| ]

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	sadistsword 2016-03-26 01:02 am UTC (link)
	[Well, she was taking one, it was still a start, even if she ended in silence again.] You know, you could at least thank me for offering this to you. [It's more pointless teasing, but he figures whatever was going on with her, it was something she probably had a hard time talking about - and that much more with him, considering they were complete strangers.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

trappedinresin
2016-03-26 07:12 pm UTC (link)

[ . . . . . . ] Thank you.

[Although she wonders if she should have taken it now. While her heart still hurts, his offering words does succeed in temporarily making her feel something else. She just can’t tell if it’s annoyance, incredulousness, or a small measure of relief from her crushing pain.

Her eyes are still clouded when she glances up to regard him for a moment.]

Are you new?

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	sadistsword 2016-03-30 05:45 pm UTC (link)
	Now am I? Do you want to guess? If you get it right you might be allowed to take another one. [Though her guess was already pretty correct, he wonders what sets this off in other people. Anyways, that didn't matter that much right now.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	trappedinresin 2016-03-30 06:14 pm UTC (link)
	[ . . . . . Instead she goes quiet a moment, glancing to the side. A difficult person?] I'm not so gluttonous that I'd jump in circles for candy. [ . . . . . . ] But of course you're new. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sadistsword 2016-04-03 08:26 am UTC (link)
	Oh? So there's some spirit left, huh? [And yet she answered.] Good girl, though. I admit you're right. I'm new. How did you guess it? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	trappedinresin 2016-04-03 08:32 pm UTC (link)
	[ Lifting a hand up, she rubs at her eyes to try and scrub the tears from them. Her vision is still blurry.] I'm on the defense force. [Which doesn't explain everything in and of itself.] I patrol a lot, and I haven't seen you before. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sadistsword 2016-04-07 08:59 pm UTC (link)
	Defense force, huh? [The air around him might feel a little more hostile now.] Heh. So what exactly are you defending? This prison? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	trappedinresin 2016-04-10 03:27 am UTC (link)
	[She shakes her head. Not really. Outside of the effect it would have on everyone here she doesn't care about the prison itself.] No. We defend the prisoners whenever something arises. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sadistsword 2016-04-10 07:34 am UTC (link)
	Defend the prisoners? [He musters her, though she did not seem like she was lying to him.] So then, what kind of things arise here that you need to defend them? You look rather tiny for doing so much protecting. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

trappedinresin
2016-04-10 04:41 pm UTC (link)

[She doesn't comment on the tiny part. Instead:]

I have a lot of combat experience.

[ . . . It's only partially true. She actually hasn't had to fight all that much, though she was trained in self defense. Moreso- her abilities just make things more simple for her.]

Things like dinosaurs, monsters, or prisoners that would try to hurt other prisoners. It seems peaceful here, but it's not uncommon for strange things to happen here every few days.

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