[What does this mean for them? She doesn't want to lose him. She doesn't want to hurt him or lead him on or do anything bad or negative to him ever. And then what about Reid? She just got done apologizing to him for having relationships that were painful to him. How would he feel about this? And should she even tell him? It assumes a lot of him that it would be a problem when she doesn't know if he's anywhere close to thinking of her for more than this friendship they're regrowing. And she loves being around him again.
And.
And.
And.
It's too much. She can't sort it out right now in this moment and it's not fair to try to sort it out with Chekov, is it?]
You're one of my closest friends. [He has been the closest with Reid having pulled away and her leaving more space between her and Ton so he can be happy with his wife.]