Aidan, I was a miserable ol' man most my life. Fought for a tiny bit of freedom. Fought to keep my crew. Hell, I almos' died fightin' for my ship. An' it worked for me pretty well. There was some sorta goodness in all of it. Was miserable here too up until Inara an' I finally hooked up. Biggest mistake of my life. Should never've let myself be happy. You don't fall so hard if you stay miserable. You know?
Not sure even how to find the glue to piece myself back together. Can't walk nor crawl no more.