[For awhile now she's been feeling like everything she does around him is wrong. It gets him angry or pushes him away when she wants anything but that. And she knows he's hurting and she doesn't know how to make it stop and it hurts to think she's making it worse. She trusts him more with his physical capabilities more now than she did at the beginning, but she also doesn't know what to be for him and how and protection is such a default state for her. Something that it feels like she shouldn't be able to mess up.
And yet... Her parents. Her students. Maybe not the best track record even if there's nothing she could have done to save them.
She wishes she could explain more and maybe he could see where she's coming from and cut her a little slack. And she could find out more about how he's doing and know better what he needs from her. It just seems like she's on egg shells when they talk. Like she's always apologizing and waiting to be let out of the dog house.
She can't be angry at him, so she directs it inward and makes things harder on herself. And things were already pretty hard.
There's some relief at his joke though. Maybe they didn't take one step forward just to move two back this time. Maybe they held some ground.]
I don't know. I'm pretty good. It's not like you're from Vegas or anything.