Doesn't mean I have to like feeling it. [He's lived through enough traumatic things in his life to know how he reacts, to know he'll never really get over watching Tyki methodically disassemble his body. It's like Canary Warf, one of those things he does his best to shove under the surface and not think about because otherwise it hurts too much. That doesn't mean he can't still have nightmares about it or stay away from Chuck's refurbished restaurant or freeze up when he's stuck staring at the face he associates with being so scared and hurt and alone.]
Sorry, I'm not trying to... I know this must be just as bad for you.