I know. [And she does. Her head and heart haven't been lining up well ever since he got "lost" in the stabilizer. It doesn't help that her love life isn't really the only thing she's been dealing with. It's a lot easier to have PTSD once you're actually "post" something. She did so many things in the name of survival and protection of the defenseless that don't exactly make her feel good about herself. It makes other kinds of insecurities easier to seep in.]
...Of course I do. [It's such an easy answer. By now it probably shouldn't be. She knows there are obstacles even from her side like regaining trust after feeling abandoned. But she can't really be mad at him about any of it. She knows how hard it is to lose people first hand. He's doing his best as much as that hurts. Just like she's been doing.]
Right now I've just hoping to have him in my life again. [Because she was pretty convinced—finally—that he just wasn't ready to have a romantic relationship for awhile. Maybe a very long while. She just thought if that ever changed... It would be her.]