Because he always seemed so much darker and sadder than someone his age should be. You seem like that to me. But he could not live with his past; he took suppressants to control his power even though he knew they would kill him. You do not seem like that to me. The way you talk about Tartarus, you make it sound like s place that hurt you but also made you stronger. With Shinjiro-san it broke him down. You do not appear that way to me.