Oh Reid... [Gently as it falls into place for her in a way she'd never considered. It's not like she ever thought he liked seeing her in harm's way, but it was different now. He'd never lost someone close to him that way before. And it was so recent for him.]
I'm sorry. I think a lot of that was timing I couldn't control, but I don't know. Maybe I was putting myself out there too much. Trying to deal with stuff the way I used to with adrenaline and work. I should have thought more about what it would do to you. I never meant to hurt you with it.
I think at that point I was trying to stop thinking about what happened. Not because I didn't care. I did. I do. I remember seeing my parents murdered because they were trying to protect me and how much it hurt. How...I don't know. How impossible it all felt. But if I let myself think about part of it then I was thinking about all of it and comparing myself to a woman I didn't even know because I felt like I was losing you and I was scared for the first time in a very long time.
[Voice getting that shaky quality back so she takes a deep breath and gets it back under control.] I guess I didn't know how to protect myself and still be there for you. I want to be a better friend.
[She noticed the way he brought Tyki up without going on. She's not sure if she should follow up on that either. He's gone now. Maybe for good. Maybe not. She felt like Reid's attitude about her feelings toward Tyki used to be a lot more understanding and maybe Maeve's death changed that too or maybe it just got to be too much, too long. There was so much history there and guilt and feelings of responsibility she probably shouldn't have taken on, but you can only reason with feelings so much.]