I hope so. [He pauses, not sure how to explain it.] It's not the dying that bothers me as much. I mean, yes, it was terrifying and it's unnerving to think about, but I've known I'm going to die for awhile now. Jack told me all about it, so I guess in a way I was prepared. It was just... It's everything leading up to it, everything he did, that's what I can't stop thinking about. I was glad to be dying, by the end of it. It was almost a relief.