[ Cold is good. Following his emotions got him into every terrible mess that ever happened to him and lately he really fucking doubts if it was worth it. It feels safer to just go with your gut and pretend you don't know any better but he has to wonder if it's not partially because he doesn't want to get out of it alive. If he was killed in action, he wouldn't have to deal with the aftermath.
He wouldn't have to go home a killer. ]
Yeah... alright. I promise. [ Goddamnit. ] How do you know so much about this stuff, anyway?