I'm not asking for anyone's forgiveness. Hell, I don't care if you do hear my side of the story! I'm a monster, I've never made myself out to be anything else. [ There's resignation here. He's given up a long time ago. ] All I ever wanted was for you to understand what you're dabbling with. It's not a slap on the wrist... it's not a goddamn mercy.
[ Enough people have given him that pep talk. It's a mercy. He's still alive. None of them really get it but that's a continued argument for another time — something else just occurred to him. ]