[Lots of hugging today. But it seems to make it alright, suddenly. He's been working so hard to be alright with it for Jack's sake, to pretend he's not as bothered by it as he is. As a result the sudden sympathy hits rather harder than he expected it to, and he swallows around the lump in his throat.] I just thought he must have had to do it so many times in his life and it must be so hard and I couldn't let him.