pure perfection
It was easier not having it forced on me, yeah. Not saying it's a picnic getting it back on your own... it's a high price to pay. [ And then there was the First and hellmouths and basements and being truly bonkers, but he got better so let's just not. ]
It... fit better. It's a different thing, wanting something and fearing it.
[ Not something he'd normally blab about, but hey. Ianto actually tried to understand it back then. Credit where credit's due. ]