[ He did love her. He loved her a lot for never having met her and some of that love came from her being his first. The first to pay attention, to like him, to love him. That's not true here. Here, Kitty claimed those firsts and many more and sooner or later when this has all evened out, she'll win. She will, even if he doesn't feel that way right now. ]
I'm sorry, I... [ Deep, shaky breath and then he pulls back, head bowed as he wipes at his eyes. ] I shouldn't. It's not fair to you.