Maybe I just wanted him all to myself. [That was definitely not it for the record. He does these awful, unforgivable things and then time passes—not even copious amounts of time—and she finds herself maybe not forgiving him, but moving past it. The things that drew him to her in the first place draw her back. Or maybe it's just inertia. She started hanging out with him again a little bit even with Reid around. Maybe because he was around and it was safe again. It wasn't tempting anymore. It was just familiar.
And now... It's still not tempting. There's just this ache and she feels ugly and damaged and if anyone is going to see that... It might as well be Tyki.]