And you feel as though you're betraying him, just by virtue of being here when he's not?
[ she's guessing but it's an educated guess at this point. there's always temptation, but especially without him, to touch someone else the way she can't touch him. deanna understands it. the problem would be how the girl would feel if she did anything and whether or not ned's appearance here would change how she felt towards him or anyone else she might see. ]