[ there are days where she acts like she carries the world on her shoulders alone. today is definitely one of those days. at least eric has the option of changing the one he loves. helen doesn't even have that. in time, she knows she will lose the people she cares for and if she hasn't already lost jean-luc, she will someday anyway to death or the whims of the prison. she hates that, hates the idea that she's become so dependent on his presence that she doesn't know what to do with him not being around. perhaps it's because the whole situation smells so strongly of john or perhaps it's because of that one little word she refuses to acknowledge yet, is too afraid to admit might exist between them.
or once had. she has no idea if it does now or not. ]
When you grow used to lose everyone around you to age or circumstance, you become accustomed to living life alone.
[ or at least she has. rebekah is apparently different and she wonders if eric is different as well. she's giving him a chance to pry a little more information out of her if he wants. while she doesn't want to bore him, she also isn't in the habit of spilling her emotions to everyone, even people she's very close to. ]