...I couldn't. It gets harder to trust as you get older, when you're no longer a child...
[And admittedly, she'd left that point long ago, but the string of betrayals and disappointments, the hardly glorious battle of wills that had transpired in Auldrant barely weeks before the point she was incarcerated hadn't allowed for much emotional or mental healing at all. She'd found her fixed point-- necessary for any soldier-- in Lelouch almost mercifully quickly, at least, and she doesn't once doubt that the relations forged with him and Suzaku stabilized her early.
Now-- she's "open". Changed. If so, then it's because of the people she surrounded herself with, she didn't decide to alter her thinking all on her own one morning. It's the... friends she has the most tumultuous relationships with that seem to make her better; she offers the particular one beside her a most grateful smile]
Perhaps I needed the extra experience, to learn how to have faith in people again... again, even if it ends up broken.