[ there's so much she hasn't told him, so much he doesn't know. for all she's confided in sam there is so much more, so much she hasn't said. to protect him. to protect herself. to protect everyone else. to keep the confidence of ones she loves.
but it's sam, and his touch tells her exactly what her being a vampire doesn't mean to him. it's why her fingers curl around his. it's selfish maybe, and that's why her smile fades as the pads of her fingers relearn the curve of his hands. ] It's okay. I knew it would happen, and... now I have to deal with it. [ in any way she knows how. she looks to her lap, to their hands on her knees. she can feel the pulse under his skin. ] Back home, something happened; I was hurt and... Dr. Fell gave me vampire blood to heal. Only I ended up dying with it in my system anyway. Matt... lost control of the car and drove off the bridge. [ she couldn't say why she doesn't mention rebekah. maybe because she doesn't want to waste the energy blaming her. not really, not anymore. can't. won't.
she doesn't mention it was the same bridge her parent drove off. where she almost died. sam already knows that. ]