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Tweak says, "I declare"

helen magnus, m.d. d.t.c.x.b. (lifelines) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2013-09-08 00:26:00

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damon salvatore, helen magnus, peggy carter, rebekah mikealson, rose

day 235 | action; ota | locked voice;
[ day 235 begins early and ends late. it's obvious to anyone who runs across her that she hasn't slept well. she's kept herself up or something did and now she's got a lot on her mind. she does make an attempt to keep to her normal schedule and can be found at the clinic for a good part of the day. towards mid-afternoon, she gives up that idea, after having found herself lost in thought for the tenth time that hour. she looks for martha to let her know that she's leaving early and not to take her temperature. the last thing she wants is for someone to think she's fallen ill, though she wouldn't blame them if they did.

after that, she wanders the dome. the library, the parks, the beach, and the athletic complex are all fair game for her stops. at the end of the time normally considered early evening, she finally turns to her communicator and sends a private voice communication to rebekah. ]

You wouldn't happen to know where to get a good bottle of wine or two, would you?

[ it's completely another request to talk with her friend, because she really needs to work some things out and if anyone can help her sort out her thoughts, it's rebekah. ]

( ooc: she can be found literally anywhere in the dome or in the morning / early afternoon hours at the clinic! )

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	lifelines 2013-09-13 02:02 pm UTC (link)
	Not exactly, but if kissing him didn't tell him, I don't know what will. [ yeah uh... she kissed him last night. y e p ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	easily 2013-09-13 09:31 pm UTC (link)
	[Rebekah grins at that.] You kissed him? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	lifelines 2013-09-13 09:41 pm UTC (link)
	[ helen just purses her lips for a moment and nods before taking a long sip of her drink. ] And judging by the way he responded, I'd say he didn't entirely mind. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	easily 2013-09-14 02:23 am UTC (link)
	[Rebekah grins proudly at that.] Well done. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	lifelines 2013-09-14 07:03 pm UTC (link)
	I'll have you know it's your fault. [ she gives rebekah a side-long smirk from over the rim of her wine glass. ] I was thinking... perhaps you're right. It's been so long since I've felt this strongly for anyone. Perhaps it's worth trying. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	easily 2013-09-15 03:21 am UTC (link)
	I will gladly take the blame in this scenario. [It's not often someone actually compliments Rebekah on her theories on love.] You seem happy talking about it, that's a good sign. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

lifelines
2013-09-15 08:07 am UTC (link)

Or perhaps I've simply grown very good at hiding my fear.

[ which, coming from her, is admitting a lot. it's that fear holding her back, preventing her from telling jean-luc her whole story. she knows she needs to someday, that he deserves to know what he'll be getting into if he wants to actually pursue something with her. she's a hot mess of complicated emotions and she knows it. ]

But I suppose it's a little late to back out now. This place is hardly suited for avoiding someone. It's large, but not nearly large enough for that.

[ so she's hoping with everything she has that this turns out well. otherwise, they'll have a hell of a time dealing with the fallout. ]

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	easily 2013-09-15 02:45 pm UTC (link)
	It is a small dome, all things considered. Makes it difficult to hide things. [Rebekah speaks from experience, having been walked in on kissing Matt earlier the same day.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

lifelines
2013-09-15 10:56 pm UTC (link)

It does. Otherwise I would have cut this off when it began. At home, there wasn't time for this sort of... thing. [ whatever they're calling the relationship between herself and jean-luc. is he her gentleman friend yet? no. they aren't exactly seeing each other yet. they're just. friends. friends who have kissed rather passionately. ] I only had time for lovers, not... anything more. And yet I want that with him.

[ is it so wrong that she wants more with jean-luc? is it wrong that she might actually--

dear god, she can feel her heart flip over in both fear and anticipation at that half-formed thought. she hasn't considered that word in over a century, almost two. not since james. ]

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easily
2013-09-16 06:14 am UTC (link)

You do know about the deal with sex here though, right? You have to get licenses for it, otherwise you get black banded for it, it gets broadcasted as a crime, nasty business.

[She remembers it happening to Caroline and Stefan, how it could have happened to her and Matt that night too if they hadn't stopped where they did.]

But I think this place...it gives us a lot of opportunities for things we never had a chance for back home.

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lifelines
2013-09-16 12:28 pm UTC (link)

[ helen's cheeks are not turning red, rebekah. that's your imagination. her personal life isn't something she usually talks about. in that, she's a very private woman, almost too victorian to function. ]

I did recall hearing about that and I wasn't planning on doing anything like that until we'd... talked it out and gotten the license for it, if we ever agreed to taking that step. I'd rather have my dignity intact and my personal life private.

[ she's now focusing entirely on her wine glass, turning it around in her fingers before finally pouring a second glass. ]

I agree... I just never thought this would be one of them.

[ she does glance at rebekah, wondering if there's more to that statement. ]

You know, we've been so focused on my difficulties, I haven't thought to ask how you're doing.

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	easily 2013-09-16 07:19 pm UTC (link)
	Just making sure. Nothing worse than seeing someone learn the hard way. [Even if it's sometimes kind of funny because deep down Rebekah is still kind of a terrible person. Rebekah blinks a little as the woman squares the attention back on her. Honestly, it's been easier to just focus on Helen's issues, a nice break from her own.] Alright, I suppose. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	lifelines 2013-09-16 07:45 pm UTC (link)
	It's much appreciated. I can't imagine what it would be like to find out that way. [ she studies her friend. ] You're certain? I wouldn't be a good friend if I didn't ask. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	easily 2013-09-16 09:07 pm UTC (link)
	[She hesitates for a moment. Matt's told her not to talk about it with anymore, but he talked to Elena about it and it's not like Helen is bound to tell anyone they know.] No, I suppose I'm not certain. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	lifelines 2013-09-16 09:39 pm UTC (link)
	This conversation is entirely confidential, I assure you. [ rebekah can trust her. trust goes two ways. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	easily 2013-09-17 12:36 am UTC (link)
	I suppose I've been having my own struggles with my love life lately -- if you could call it that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	lifelines 2013-09-17 10:39 am UTC (link)
	I've got all evening. [ let her repay the favor. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

easily
2013-09-17 05:51 pm UTC (link)

[Rebekah takes a long drink from her glass, draining it. It's hard not to remember the scene earlier -- Tyler walking in on them and Matt's fervent denials of it being anything of substance. She knows he still needs time to figure out what he wants but she'd be lying if she said it didn't hurt.]

There's somebody from my home, Matt, who I've been sort of involved with for a while, if you could call it that.

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	lifelines 2013-09-18 10:05 pm UTC (link)
	[ she remembers matt. he was the one who came into the clinic for a gash that needed to be rebandaged. helen curls her legs up under her and turns so she can better see rebekah, nodding for her friend to continue. ] "Sort of involved with?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

easily
2013-09-18 10:36 pm UTC (link)

[Rebekah grabs the bottle, pouring herself another glass as she speaks.]

Well, he doesn't want to really...define things just yet. He's not totally sure he wants to be with a vampire. [She hesitates -- but Helen is her friend, she should be honest.]

And in the past I've given him plenty of reasons to not want to be with me. Things I am lucky he has forgiven me at all for.

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lifelines
2013-09-18 10:43 pm UTC (link)

I think we all have those moments. [ she's had her fair share as well and won't be the one to judge rebekah. however... ] I think I can understand where he might be coming from. Not necessarily because his romantic interest is a vampire... but because there might be other underlying reasons, worries and reservations he might have.

[ she swirls her glass a little and takes a sip. ]

I know I once did... and still do.

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easily
2013-09-18 10:47 pm UTC (link)

[Rebekah nods a little.]

I know. I know...he's had traumatic experiences in the past. [She remembers hearing about his sister, Vicki, and how he first found out about Caroline being a vampire.]

I've tried to be patient, but it's been difficult. He's asked me to keep it quiet until he's figured out totally what he wants -- but we've still been kissing and his friend Tyler's been staying with us -- he walked in on us earlier today.

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lifelines
2013-09-19 01:33 pm UTC (link)

But that doesn't make it any easier on you. [ especially if they've been kissing. that doesn't usually make things easy to deal with. she knows it was hard enough on james and she didn't kiss him until she decided to become his lady friend and lover. for rebekah to want that with someone who wasn't sure what he wanted but was still willing to kiss her and make her want it all the more... helen knows it's beyond difficult, especially with someone who loves as easily and fully as rebekah seems to. ]

I take it that didn't go as planned.

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	easily 2013-09-20 05:44 am UTC (link)
	No, it doesn't. [Rebekah's liked Matt for a long time.] Back home we were going to spend the summer together, just the two of us but here -- we never got that chance. [She has a feeling it'd be a lot easier if he didn't have all of his friends to worry about.] Not at all. Matt went into denial mode pretty quickly. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	lifelines 2013-09-21 01:26 am UTC (link)
	And you're not having difficulty dealing with the fallout. [ not that she can blame rebekah. that would be difficult on anyone. ] I assume he knows how you feel. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)