she reaches up to her hair, twisting the long mess around itself and trailing it across one shoulder. it's as much something to do as it is a way to get out some of her nervousness. ]
It can. I've had that happen a few times. [ twice, really, but she isn't so sure she wants to risk it this time. what if he's like her and he would rather not risk a relationship that might break their friendship? ] This whole thing is so adolescent. [ if she sounds frustrated, she's frustrated at herself, not rebekah. having legitimate feelings for someone is putting a crimp in her control issues.
she glances back up at her friend and nods. somehow she can tell that at least rebekah understands that. helen doesn't give her heart away easily or often. the fact that she's even considering doing so now is a rather large deal. her voice is soft when she answers. ]
He is. He's a gentleman through and through and he's made my time here quite enjoyable. I haven't decided if I'm ready to risk losing that. [ will would nudge her into making that leap of faith, and she might consider it. he's loved and lost as well and he's gotten to know her over the years, the good and the bad parts of helen magnus. he would understand what this is costing her. however, rebekah is older. she's experienced the same sense of loss a thousand times over and yet she's come out with a brighter outlook on love than helen. what happened? what changed her? why are their situations so different? and why is helen giving this so much thought?
she has too much time on her hands here. that must be the reason. she makes a mental note to delve deeper into any work she can find over the next few days. ]