[Lacus glances over at the water, she's afraid she'll faint if she sits up to drink, and she's frightened poor Sougo enough today. She turns over to rest her head on his arm. And, without much thought about what she should say, starts talking.]
I wasn't planning to come home until very late last night, even if I hadn't been attacked. I wanted to give you the time with your sister... I told myself that, but I was also afraid to walk home earlier. Neil was here yesterday and I don't think I wanted to see him.
That's why I was out so late, alone. [Part of her did indeed want to see the man who she thought loved her, even if it meant having to hear it confirmed that he didn't. Maybe it would have been best to get that closure. It hardly matters now.]