[ she's well aware it's a bad idea. or at least not something she should do. what she thought she was asking for was advice; now she realizes maybe she wanted justification. she exhales. ] I know it's a bad idea. I know there are so many reasons why I shouldn't. I'm not sure I have the self-control for anything with Damon. [ she looks away, shakes her head some. ] I just... it's what I want. [ even if she's not sure how to define how she feels about him at all. it can't be what she wants, can it? ] Have you ever felt that way?