[But as soon as she starts to ask she gets it. Neil is gone. Lost in the dimensional stabilizer or whatever the wardens are calling it these days. She's never been sure what that means or what she wants it to mean. She used to believe they were home again by some strange fluke. There's no comfort in that thought today.
After all, they were "death buddies."]
Oh. [Her voice is soft.] I'm sorry. [She means it too.]