"That kind of magic never comes without a price." There has to be a balance to nature. "For every advantage we had there was also a weakness." And though she likes Helen well enough and might even want to call her a friend the paranoid part of her isn't going to be just handing over those weaknesses right away.
"I am too. I don't often feel comfortable enough to talk to someone about this." People who knew what she was always saw her as a threat -- which always made the conversation aggressive by default.