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[ she wonders if maybe damon would have warned matt not to tell her what they don't know. his response is confirmation enough he thinks it still wouldn't help. elena looks down, into her pillow; she knows it's bad. it's matt, not talking to her about the truth when he knows it's the one thing she values.
she thinks he's protecting her. and worse, he doesn't want to tell her to spare (her) himself the pain of telling her. ] I guess I feel like if I knew, maybe I could handle it better. [ that's the truth. she knows about ric. about being a vampire. she thinks she could handle those things, if she experienced them.
she knows she could, because she's been told she did. ]