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ｃａｒｏｌｉｎｅ ｆｏｒｂｅｓ ([info]amplified) wrote in [info]marinanova,
@ 2013-06-29 04:30:00

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Entry tags:caroline forbes, elena gilbert

backdated to day 224 || late evening || closed
[ there's a walk of shame and then there is a walk of shame. there's no way caroline can get away with it, not that she thinks she should, but her clothes are rumbled and her hair (usually curly perfection) is a wet tussled mess. yeah, she had the decency to take a shower after... well, yeah. she's not ashamed of what happened, she... had a great time but she is ashamed that she didn't really clear that with elena first.

and now came the hard part. the telling elena part. and when she comes into the apartment, she's not sure if elena will be in her room or around the apartment. but she's got take out as if that will somehow soften the whole 'i slept with your ex-boyfriend' blow. but it's the right thing to do, to tell her, especially considering caroline knows it'll be announced to the whole network tomorrow, much to her embarrassment. ]

Elena?


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[info]matter
2013-06-29 12:25 pm UTC (link)
[ elena had decided to take somewhat of an early night. she's in her room when caroline gets home, having been in bed but not sleeping either. not tossing and turning, no - actually she had been talking to damon. caroline's absence had been noticed, and it was odd she hadn't called, but elena decided to assume she was at the blood shack. (or with stefan.) she's just reaching over to turn off the light when she thinks she hears someone come in, and then the unmistakable sound of caroline's voice.

she stops, the pause and symptomatic of recognizing something in her tone, and her coming home late like this at all. curious (and maybe not so curious,) elena climbs out of bed, pads over to duck out the hall and walk to the common area. she spots caroline, hair wet, food at hand. ] Hey. [ it's as much a 'hello' as it is a 'what's this?' ]

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[info]amplified
2013-06-29 06:31 pm UTC (link)
[ caroline's not exactly the best at being duplicitous, her tone betrays her and her behavior. it's late but she still brings food, mostly because she feels ravenous herself and elena's probably already eaten but hey, it can't hurt. ] Sorry, did I wake you up? [ god, she's just avoiding bringing it up but she has to, it's only fair. they've made such strides in honesty and... well, yeah.]

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[info]matter
2013-07-02 12:33 pm UTC (link)
[ yeah, everything about this kind of tips elena off. she walks further into the room, her concern clear on her face. ] No, I was going to bed. Did something happen?

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[info]amplified
2013-07-02 03:18 pm UTC (link)
No! I mean, yeah, but everything's okay. [ ish. she sighs softly, moving to set down the food now, feeling stupid as she realizes that it's that late and elena's probably already eaten.] I kinda might've done something. [ she glances at elena, saying a silent prayer that she won't be too hurt.] I was really mad and I went over to Stefan's and we started talking and then there were drinks and things... happened. [ she makes a face, one that's half a wince and half hopeful]

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[info]matter
2013-07-02 08:01 pm UTC (link)
[ nothing about what caroline says surprises her. nothing except the last part. obviously yes, something happened, and okay, caroline did something. elena hesitates to step closer curiously, out of concern, wondering what -

of course caroline woud go to someone - to stefan, now - because she was mad. because of matt and rebekah and everything's that's happened today. and elena feels her breath cut short at the last, a forceable punch to her gut.

'things.'

and just like that, the pain she feels - or thinks she might, or was waiting for - doesn't come. (whatever lingers is inconsequential. she loves stefan; she loves caroline. both of them.

mostly she's thinking, that was. fast.)

(and then she's thinking about damon's hands against her cheeks, the hunger of his lips surging against hers - )

her lips part and she blinks, shifts on her feet.

she can't blame caroline or stefan, be mad or jealous. she's not.

unfortunately, in all her realizations, she's probably quiet a moment too long. ]

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[info]amplified
2013-07-02 08:10 pm UTC (link)
[ yeah, the silence is deafening and caroline starts to panic internally. she knew this would happen that this would hurt elena and it's honestly the last thing she wanted to do, hurt her friend. and it's not like she planned this, it just happened, obviously because now she knows the wardens will probably catch on and give her a punishment as well.

her expression expresses her panic and she takes in a breath.] I'm sorry, Elena. I'm so sorry. It's not... I mean I didn't mean for it to happen so soon. Not that I meant for it to happen at all. It just did, you know? I didn't want to hurt you at all and like, I know we just talked about it earlier and it's so fast, I just-- [ stop her, for the love of god, elena or she'll keep rambling apologetically.]

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[info]matter
2013-07-02 08:18 pm UTC (link)
[ caroline rambling and panicking is all elena needs to start forward and to stop her. she pulls in a breath, shakes her head - ] No, it's - it's okay, Caroline. [ there's a part of her that still finds it difficult to imagine a world where this would be okay, but it is. it was different with matt, in a way; it was weird, but... well, maybe this isn't much different. ] I mean, yeah - it is fast, and it's... I mean, it's a little weird, but it's okay. [ she exhales, nods reassuringly. ] I'm glad it... worked out. I'm glad you both can be happy.

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[info]amplified
2013-07-02 08:59 pm UTC (link)
[ for a moment, caroline studies elena's face, as if she can't believe that it's actually okay.] Wait... seriously? I mean, it's okay if you're not okay with, I'd get it. I know it's weird and it's... crazy. [ but she really likes him and the whole sex thing definitely didn't make that any less true.]

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[info]matter
2013-07-02 09:43 pm UTC (link)
[ she doesn't blanche at the scrutiny. she can't say it bothers her - she won't, even if it's strange and maybe unexpected. stefan and caroline don't owe her any more than a heads up. that's what she gets. and as weird as it is, she knows caroline doesn't mean it as a betrayal or maliciously.

if the past few months have taught her anything... ] Yeah, it's not crazy. [ stefan and caroline are... friends. they always have been. so this is... ] Things have been over between me and Stefan for awhile and you guys... [ she holds out an arm, gestures instead of finishing the sentence. it's still kind of like getting hit by a truck. one she knew might be coming, but. ]

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[info]amplified
2013-07-03 02:20 am UTC (link)
I know but... [ she looks so apologetic.] I just didn't mean for it to happen this way. [ she hopes having given elena a head's up on she felt about stefan would've helped somehow. she didn't mean it maliciously at all, she wasn't trying to steal stefan from elena, there's nothing petty in her actions.

she cares about elena even more than she cares for stefan and that's a whole lot.] I'm sorry. [ not for what she did but how it came about and if it hurt elena at all.]

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[info]matter
2013-07-03 02:45 am UTC (link)
[ and just like that, any hurt over the circumstances or trepidation or shock she feels... she can let go. elena pulls in a breath, watches the pain play across caroline's features. she exhales and steps forward. ] I know, Caroline. [ caroline should be happy. deserves to be. elena feels an undercurrent, a stab of a reminder, hearing caroline apologize when...

caroline deserves to know this too. ]

And there's something I have to tell you too. [ it's been a day - a day of... sorting it out, adjusting and... maybe she's been putting this to the back of her mind, this talk, this reaction. their talk the other day helps, but... ]

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[info]amplified
2013-07-03 02:47 am UTC (link)
[ distraction provided, caroline glances at elena and she looks worried herself.] What is it?

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[info]matter
2013-07-03 03:03 am UTC (link)
[ right, okay. so to put this stefan confession aside... (it takes the space of a breath.) elena parts her lips; no sound comes out. she doesn't know how to say this, so she should just... ] Damon and I... kissed the other day. [ she could explain - or say it just happened, but the first would be dishonest and the second would be a lie. she has no intention to explain, and she realizes she can't. she meant to kiss him. she's meant to have said and felt all of what she said and felt the last few weeks, the last few months. so she doesn't. she has nothing to justify. she doesn't want to hurt caroline again and maybe she won't, but there's nothing to say but the honest truth.

she's happy. ] We're together.

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[info]amplified
2013-07-03 03:09 am UTC (link)
[ caroline looks surprised, honestly, forgive her. but instead of exploding with anger or looking angry, she sort just laughs and shakes her head.] We're kinda a mess, huh? [ it stings but she imagines as much as her confession had stung elena.

but in a way, caroline's realized that you can't help who makes you happy, she's proof of that. so she just smiles softly,] So I guess this means I have to stop trying to get you and Sam together, huh?

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[info]matter
2013-07-03 03:24 am UTC (link)
[ anger wouldn't have been out of place. elena cares - so much - about how this affects caroline. always has. her eyes search caroline's expression, waiting -

and now elena looks surprised, so forgive her. (she knows this probably stings caroline too. of course it would. and still...) elena lets out a breath she didn't know she'd been holding. manages a soft smile too. ] Yeah, I'm not sure it would really work out.

[ she pauses, feels a surge of emotions rising and overflowing, bringing tears to her eyes. it seems natural and inevitable to close the distance between them and wrap her arms around caroline. ] I'm kind of glad we're a mess.

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[info]amplified
2013-07-03 07:51 pm UTC (link)
[ caroline's not surprised by the hug, honestly she probably would've pulled elena into a hug too. so she hugs back, letting out a breath. honestly, they've been through too much to not settle things, to let boys be something that comes between them, no matter the circumstances.] Me too. [she lets the hug linger for a moment before she does speak again.]

Except now-- [ caroline pulls back a little to look at elena.] We have to figure out what Matt's hiding. Because the whole thing is hinky and I don't like it. [ time to tag team, elena.] Because he's a mess too.

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[info]matter
2013-07-04 06:25 am UTC (link)
[ they have. way too much for way too long. and she's just glad they can work with it, past it, however and whatever works for both of them. elena closes her eyes a moment; lingers too.

it's not that she doesn't agree about matt. about this is all very hinky and she doesn't like it either. but... elena pulls in a breath. (matt is a mess. maybe she wouldn't put it like that, but something is eating away at him. something or some things bad.)

she's about to protest, but - she's right. ] I'm worried. [ she pauses. what really hurts is... ] He won't talk to me. I told him I wouldn't push, but I...

I don't want to make this worse. I don't know if I can let it go either. [ because it means letting go of home, of her life there... it means not being prepared to exist here either, when at any moment klaus or something worse could show up. ]

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[info]amplified
2013-07-04 06:33 am UTC (link)
Trust me, pushing won't help anyways. [ because caroline has. oh, she has. she's done every thing she can, guilt trips, begging, fighting with him. ] I don't want to give it up either, it has to be something bad. And I'd rather hear it from him then, like, Rebekah when she throws a hissy fit or Klaus if he comes back and rubs it in our faces. [ and honestly, caroline doesn't like what it's doing to matt, the way it's making him act.]

I don't like him not being on our side and it feels like he's not.

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[info]matter
2013-07-04 02:19 pm UTC (link)
[ elena would take the information from rebekah, even klaus. but listening to caroline, she knows she'd rather hear it from matt, whatever it is.

he's keeping something, but... ] Caroline, I don't think he's not on our side, I think he's... confused. I think he's hurting.

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[info]amplified
2013-07-06 05:07 am UTC (link)
I know he's hurting, Elena. [ she knows matt too, although to elena's credit, caroline has always been the less perceptive one of them both.] But think about it. He's keeping secrets and buddying up with Rebekah? It's her fault you become a vampire, she almost killed him. I'm sorry but she had to have saved a whole burning orphanage of kids and cure cancer to be worth trusting again.

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[info]matter
2013-07-07 04:44 pm UTC (link)
[ elena can't argue; it's... it's something that needs an answer, some kind of explanation. she hesitates, lets out a breath of some humorless amusement at caroline's assessment of rebekah. ] There has to be a good reason why he would. I know there is; it's Matt.

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[info]amplified
2013-07-08 03:21 am UTC (link)
[ it's matt. that's the problem, caroline knows it's matt and that's what worries her so much.] I'm tired of fighting with him.

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[info]matter
2013-07-10 04:42 pm UTC (link)
[ elena softens. this is how caroline reacts to some things, with hostility. of course it has an effect. of course she's tired of it; it hurts elena to watch them fight too. she wants them to stop, would do whatever it takes to help.

elena steps forward to pull caroline into an embrace. ] I know. We'll figure it out. [ there's just the how. ]

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[info]amplified
2013-07-12 03:51 am UTC (link)
This sucks. [ she lets out a sigh as she frowns and hugs elena back, tucking her shoulder under her chin.] And I don't know what to do.

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[info]matter
2013-07-18 03:06 pm UTC (link)
I don't know either. [ it seems helpless. it can't be. whatever matt's keeping inside... he can't forever. she squeezes caroline tighter, slowly moves back and tucks hair behind her ear. ] I guess we should just... be there for him. Try to be understanding, even when it's frustrating.

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