[Honestly, she doesn't. That isn't what bothers her.]
Often I... wonder at how much easier things would have been if all of us were human from the start. Everything would be so much simpler.
[In her eyes, at least. Kaname wouldn't have a reason to go around hurting anyone. Zero's family would still be alive. Probably her parents, too.]
But we aren't and neither is everyone we know. Because of that I want to be able to make a difference and protect the people I care about. But I can't stand up to the empowered without being so myself. [There's really no chance otherwise. She makes a face.]
And, well-- I had never been stabbed when human before. Even if it feels weird, I really missed the ability to heal right away. When you're human the pain doesn't just disappear. That whole work out session and even showering made me feel sick to my stomach. [because it pulled and aggravated her injuries so badly.]