:: action - so do i. it is the most amazing thing in the world sdfkj
[ helen has the clinic. it isn't the sanctuary and it never will be, but it's a start. it's something for her to do with her hours and that's part of what she was going for when she proposed the idea. even so, his words remind her of herself centuries ago. james might have pulled her back from such a venture... but at the same time, he'd been part of the five, he'd gone ahead with the source blood experiment.
she shakes herself inwardly to clear her mind of those intruding thoughts and once again turns back to face the captain. they aren't yet on a first-name basis, though she wonders if they ever will be, considering how they both seem to favor respectful titles rather than personal names. this man seems to have a very good way with words... he's encouraging her to actually speak about her emotions, something will has been after her for the three years he's known her.
at least when she rests her hands on the counter behind her, she looks better than she did previously, less closed, fewer hints of sorrow in her eyes. that might even be a hint of a smile, a small one. but it's there. ]
My second-in-command would have liked you. He's been trying to tell me that for the last three years.
[ once upon a time, she had been like that. and to some extent she still was. she very much liked having things to do. it was simply difficult for a woman of her age and experience. or so she kept telling herself. it's easier not to be attached, even if she knows well she always will be. ]
I suppose "going all in" works for some situations better than others.
[ it's harder when you know the universe won't let you die. ]