I wanted it. [It's a simple and not simple answer. An admission she might not have made to Elena in the past -- but things have shifted. She's tempted to mention how they had been working together to get it for her -- but that comes with other exploitations she doesn't want to give the other girl.
If she could not have the knowledge of Kol's death, she'd feel better. She assumes it's best Elena doesn't know about Jeremy's.]
There was only one dose. Obviously, I didn't get it.