[He gives a small nod, before continuing on with his story.]
I convinced myself that two people had died that day. Ichiru literally died in my arms and I kissed the human Yuuki goodbye. Though Ichiru's body eventually grew cold and the life slipped away from his eyes--Yuuki was warm. Her eyes were full of life.
I swore if I saw her again, I would kill her. I meant it. Her final words to me before parting were "Then I'll keep running from you so you have something to live for."
But vampires from my world...need the blood of the ones they love in order to help their sanity. When our paths began to cross again--I told myself it was just because of the reminder of the past. I struggled and fought...but little by little I let her back into my world. Always there was this distance.
She took my memories back home because I refused to face reality and help myself. Rather than touch her blood, I drank from the vampires I hunted to help with my sanity. Which only made it worse.