[ she's pretty much right. :c can't avoid this forever, gilbert. elena manages the twinge of a smile before heading for the rest rooms. it's not as if she thinks she can avoid it forever, or even that she particular wants to - she only dreads hurting and disappointing her best friend. and for what? not even for damon, but for herself. for her own selfishness. her own feelings and desires that she just can't seem to shut off now that she's been forced to entertain them. ]