[It was more Duo's torn feelings over what he was thinking of doing than the actual idea brought forth. He liked the idea, he just wasn't sure if he wanted to participate for tons of complicated internal reasons that were saying both yes and no at the same time.]
I'm just thinking. I mean, you know. There's nothing back home, and I wasn't sure if it was a good idea for me to do anything in the first place.
[And now he was rambling a little with his indecisiveness.]
So, I was worried, I guess. And maybe part of me wanted someone to tell me 'no', but I think I would have been disappointed if that was the case.