I feel the same way. [Not that there's no regrets, most of them for Kira's place in her heart. But there is also the memory of how she felt last night, with him, how alive and vital and beautiful. It's difficult to reconcile the regret with all of that.]
[She leans closer and gently kisses his neck, not knowing what's behind the urge and not wishing to contemplate it.] I'm not sure what I want to do.