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Tweak says, ""Shut up Clive""

Rion Steiner (abelminded) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2012-07-16 17:33:00

Entry tags:

aidan reilly, birdman, cain, dick grayson (young justice), luke fon fabre, rion steiner, sasha

day 176 [video / voice];
[someone sure is in the hospital, maybe for the day. his head is wrapped up tight in gauze, but he otherwise looks okay. his index and middle finger on his right hand are also splinted, for now.]

...For anyone who had to see what happened yesterday: I'm okay—no one needed to see that broadcast. Sorry to those of you who had to see it, and...thanks to those of you who did whatever you did to bring me to the hospital... I'm sorry to have troubled you.

[the video feed cuts—
but Rion's voice is still there. this is only apparent after a second or two of silence.]

I won't forget what you did.

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	video; abelminded 2012-07-17 10:28 am UTC (link)
	Cain attacked and nearly killed me, yesterday night. [am a mad boyyy] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	video; redclayheroics 2012-07-17 02:21 pm UTC (link)
	...What? Oh. Oh no, I'm so sorry. Are you okay? [Be honest, man.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	video; abelminded 2012-07-17 04:33 pm UTC (link)
	I—[haven't even really had enough time to think about it. the concern strikes Rion as a little funny, since he hasn't...truthfully known many people, much less good ones.] guess so. I mean, they put me back together... My head hurts, but it always does. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	video; redclayheroics 2012-07-18 12:34 am UTC (link)
	Always..? Man... that's not okay. Isn't there anythin' they can do about that? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	video; 1/2 abelminded 2012-07-18 12:57 am UTC (link)
	~~[GIVE ME DRUGS]~~ ...No. It's—it's... [please hold; Rion's brain skips and he's frozen for a second, a hand pressed to his face. it's shameful and he's sweating thinking about it, and he swallows dryly. then locks it to private, just because... this sort of thing is okay to talk about, but maybe not in public.] (Reply to this) (Parent)

	video; 2/2 [PRIVATE \| unhackable] abelminded 2012-07-18 01:01 am UTC (link)
	[Rion is kind of having a hard time identifying the withdrawal explicitly. or rather, he's not sure how to explain it.] It's because I—my body needs these specific drugs... It hasn't been long, but the pain is already so bad. [rememberin' some shit his sort-of dealer said] ...I'm addicted. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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redclayheroics
2012-07-19 04:45 am UTC (link)

Oh, Rion...

[The words are soft, followed by a stretch of silence. He's really not sure how to deal with this. Sure, he's been around addicts before but he never really got in touch with the grittier sides of withdrawal and this is... this is scary. This is bigger than he can grasp, with his limited experience.

So in the end, the only thing he's got is unwavering sympathy and support. That always works, doesn't it?]

I'm so, so sorry. And they can't just... give you enough to, I don't know... take th' edge off? Sorta, ween you off or somethin'?

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abelminded
2012-07-19 03:27 pm UTC (link)

[Rion feels a weird twisting feeling in his gut. it's not quite embarrassment. definitely, it's shame—he never asked for the addiction, and he wonders how it must make him look. before, it was a necesssary mechanic in survival and also protecting Lilia.

he had no time to really process his fate, with the drugs. but here is different.]

...I don't think so. I'm sure Cain and Birdman have already tried something from that angle; they've been here longer and have had to deal with the withdrawal longer.

I do get delmetor, at least, which... prevents my brain from hemmoraging.

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redclayheroics
2012-07-20 05:04 pm UTC (link)

Jeeze... [And again, that's all he can say. He's not judging Rion for the situation he's in. After all, he doesn't know how it happened — there are so many things that can go wrong and land an otherwise good person in a bad situation. Aidan knows this intimately, and despite the conversation with Birdman earlier he's not prepared to think of Rion as anything other than a good person.

After a small stretch of silence he speaks up again, softly. Worried. ]

Will you be okay..?

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abelminded
2012-07-20 05:38 pm UTC (link)

Maybe, but—I don't know. I don't know anything about withdrawal, or drugs, or anything like that...

[oh, yeah. also, the murder-lusting siblings. Rion just doesn't touch the subject. ultimately, the answer to 'will you be okay' is probably 'no', but Rion doesn't want to call anymore attention to it.]

But I mean, I should be fine.

[right?]

The medical care here is really advanced.

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	[PRIVATE \| unhackable] redclayheroics 2012-07-20 11:34 pm UTC (link)
	Man, I sure hope so... y'know, there are some people that can heal 'round here too. With magic. I don't know if it works that way, but couldn't hurt to try... right? An' if you need anything... just ask. I'll see what I can do. [Grapes are a thing, right? Isn't that something you give people when they're in the hospital?] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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abelminded
2012-07-21 12:41 am UTC (link)

Someone like that saved me the night I was attacked, actually. I wonder...

[Rion nearly questions the compassion, but thankfully manages to put himself in Aidan's shoes well enough to sort of understand... compassion like this from strangers is still a little strange to Rion.]

That's nice of you. I can't say I totally understand why you would offer that to someone like me, especially since I'm a stranger, but... thank you.

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	[PRIVATE \| unhackable] redclayheroics 2012-07-21 01:44 am UTC (link)
	"Someone like you"..? [He echoes the words softly. Not the first time someone's said that to him.] Rion... you haven't given me a single reason to think you're a bad person. Why would I assume that you are, just because I don't know you? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[PRIVATE \| unhackable] abelminded 2012-07-21 09:27 pm UTC (link)
	I'm not necessarily saying I'm a bad person. [even though he thinks he is. definitely] Just... first of all, you don't know me, and second of all, I just admitted to you that I'm addicted to drugs. It doesn't matter, though—I didn't mean to sound ungrateful or anything. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[PRIVATE \| unhackable] redclayheroics 2012-07-21 11:32 pm UTC (link)
	No, no... 's fine. I guess it's kinda weird, huh? Most people wouldn't think that way. 'Least, they didn't where I'm from. But, I mean... I don't know you. An'... y'know, bein' addicted to somethin'... it happens. It can happen to anyone. That doesn't mean I should treat you like less of a person. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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abelminded
2012-07-22 04:20 pm UTC (link)

[~~a lot of somethin's~~

Rion seems to lift out of a strange funk, grounded somewhat by Aidan's words; he wasn't aware he'd needed any sort of reassurance, or that he was apparently asking for it. but those words make him feel a little better about something he wasn't even totally aware of feeling bad about in the first place.]

...Thanks. I guess I haven't really thought about what it all means to me, because it happened so fast—the drugs, the addiction—so I hadn't realized I was thinking that way. Like I'm less of a person.

I guess I really do think that way.

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	[PRIVATE \| unhackable] redclayheroics 2012-07-22 05:49 pm UTC (link)
	[He smiles a little, somewhat sad. It's understandable, really, and he's not blaming Rion for feeling this way at all. Still, it's just so... sad. ] You're gonna be okay, Rion. I'm sure of it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[PRIVATE \| unhackable] abelminded 2012-07-22 06:09 pm UTC (link)
	[Rion's suddenly just at a total blank on what to say. he feels like half of the conversations he's had with Aidan have just been thank yous. he feels weirdly flustered. it's not totally unlike fear, but it's not the same, right? unless he feels vulnerable. maybe he does. maybe it is fear.] ...I...don't know. I'm sorry. It was too much information. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[PRIVATE \| unhackable] redclayheroics 2012-07-23 04:28 am UTC (link)
	[He shakes his head, still smiling softly. This is kind of familiar, being nice to someone that doesn't know how to handle it and he kind of feels like he's done enough for one day. Better back off, just a bit.] Nah, 's fine. I don't mind. I should probably leave you alone for a bit though, I bet you're tired after all that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[PRIVATE \| unhackable] abelminded 2012-07-23 08:47 am UTC (link)
	...Yeah. [ALWAYS SO GDAMN TIRED] Thank you, Aidan. I wish I could do more than saying that again and again, but... [well, he means it.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[PRIVATE \| unhackable] redclayheroics 2012-07-23 09:38 pm UTC (link)
	Hey, don't worry about it. Just take care of yourself, okay? Get some rest. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[PRIVATE \| unhackable] abelminded 2012-07-23 09:59 pm UTC (link)
	[Rion actively resists the tempting tic to lift the corner of his mouth, just a little, and successfully does not smile. but his eyes are soft, and his posture slackens similarly. he nods with a heavy bob.] ...I'll try. The same to you. [and Rion cuts the feed.] (Reply to this) (Parent)

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