[ Truth be told, it's a bit of both. If he had his choice, he wouldn't stay but if leaving meant leaving her behind... he's not sure going home would be worth the loss. She's brought so much into his life that he couldn't even bring himself to dream about before and just the thought of losing it, even if he wouldn't remember it — it's too much to bear. ]
No, I don't... [ Small pause. ] ...but I think I've figured out how to make you smile.