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Perhaps in another lifetime they would've meant something more to me.
[ or if he wasn't so incredibly damaged. there were perhaps one or two that had him question his entire moral compass, his entire rulebook of how to enjoy life to the fullest for as long as the world kept spinning. kol doesn't allow himself to remember them as people always leave, people always die, and people never quite want him. it makes him weak, feeling it all, and kol doesn't particularly know how to be weak. ]
[ his guard is always up. ]
It's much easier being detached, Rebekah. It hurts much less.
[ although kol's pretty sure he's got that all wrong. he can't remember if he's ever felt what rebekah has when matt donovan had placed his jacket over her shoulders, or how elijah had felt when he had spent time with katerina; he hates humans for what they ultimately represent, and that's a boy that's been lost somewhere in the making of a monster. ]