Oh. No. No psychotic break or binge. I was sort of first hand witness to that a few times and I'd just rather not. [She gnaws on her bottom lip and glances over her shoulder to see who else is around before looking back.] It's not--so Angel and I are a soap opera on like a major level. We always have been. It was a whole...[some eye rolling and hand waving in a dismissal sort of way] Anyway...the first time we had sex, he went evil. You think that'd teach me, you know? But oh no apparently post high school, we gave it a shot again. The world ended. Like...demons crawling through into our world and destroying everything and eating people ended. Ended. It also kind of transported us to this paradise universe thing. Just me and Angel. [She starts shredding the napkin she's got in her hand slowly and methodically.]
We were happy. Really. Really happy. I mean, we didn't know that the entire world was being destroyed while we were being happy. That kind of ruined the buzz and so...I took it all back. They gave me the option. Utopian sex paradise forever with Angel or...go save the world. Again. No joy for Buffy.
[She looked up at him finally.] I saved the world. Again. And I'm kind of pissed that I had to because happy should be a thing that I get to be and traditionally it's a lot of nope.