I know, I just mean... do you like talking to him sometimes? I get that-- I mean, I think he's a jerk. But you and he... were together, right? [For whatever reasons. It happened and was a thing.] So it makes sense if there's a part of him you... like.
Not saying I'd advise you to hang out with him or even talk to or go near him, but just saying it's okay to... feel tolerable of him. I think this is the definition of a toxic relationship, in a sense. He's nothing but a poison to you right now.