[Saya isn't usually one to share more of her past than she has to with people, but somewhere as Aidan was talking she resolved to let him read Joel's diary. If he wants to, that is.]
I don't think he'd want you to get him, not like that. I mean, what I like about you is that you're a good person in all the ways I'm not, and for you to really get it you'd have to feel all those bad things.
-- But I could be wrong. My life and his aren't the same.